When is enough enough for my delicate heart. My gf and I…

would she lie about something so small unless it wasn't small and she was being dishonest with me in the first place. how can I trust her if she lies about such simple things. so I have been reaching out all day to try and talk to her and she basically ignored me. said she was helping her family with some phone stuff then I kept texting and she said she would call me in a minute. Hour later she hasn't called and I'm distraught and she finally responds and says you aren't losing me I just need some time to collect myself. what is she collecting herself from. I can't have trust if she isn't more open with me after everything that happened with the other guy. she still works with him she told me she blocked him and hasn't been in contact but I just don't know. she was hiding it when I first found out when we lived together too and now I'm 500 miles away. what can I do what should I do. should I stop fighting for the love we once shared? when we communicate and connect its beautiful. we both love our virtual dates and our conversations and everything but I just can't keep doing this it's tearing me apartwhy did she ignore me all day if she wasn't feeling guilty and hiding something greater. I want to trust her I love her but it's so hard when the stories don't add upI can send some examples of the texts I sent while being ignored if that would help. at first I was caring and loving but a little prying as usual and then over time I absolutely lost it and was basically crying on the floor

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we talked on the phone and video called before she went out last night and her friend came to pick her up and we said I love you and I told her to have fun and Yada Yada. nothing bad but then all this. what am I to do

sorry for the length, take your time. thank you

I think she trusts me plenty, but she is struggling with being on her own too and that's added a lot to her stress and anxietyI just moved like 2 weeks ago. We were madly in love.There have been a lot of ups and downs but do you really think it's time to hang it up

She responds positively. she wants to do better for herself and us. she wants to go to couples therapy she wants to work on us. she wants me, she loves me. we have positive virtual dates and talk almost daily on the phone. I am the one doing most of the reaching out but she has a lot on her plate with wanting to find a job in her career path and putting together the apartment because she has too much stuff and has been getting overwhelmed by that tooshe has OCD and we learned yesterday she has a hoarding disorder too so she has an attachment to her things like they are a part of her. We talk openly a lot and it's positive when we are talking but I do feel neglected. I haven't gotten a chance to talk to her since everything today because she is at work

I overthink things, yes, but sometimes the stories don't add up and then I drive myself a little crazy thinking about why she would be hiding something from me or telling little white liesI don't need my feelings protected I just need blunt honestyif it needs to be over then I will have to accept that but that's not what she says when I bring it up. like we still want to get engaged sometime this year and we say I love you all the time and the connection is beautiful when it's there and we both miss each other