Good evening and thank you so much for your message. I realize it's difficult to reach out. Please know I honor your courage.
My name is ***** ***** I am a psychotherapist in the Metro Boston area of the United States.
Ohhhhh sweet friend, I am so incredibly sad for you. I too have been in your place and know exactly how devastating it is.
Sadly there is not too much you can do as your ex friend has made it very clear about not reserving a place for you in his life. I am so sorry as this is not what you want to hear. It sounds as if you have done everything right but that he may struggle with some real issues of intimacy. This is a person who you can never be close and worked hard to keep you at an distance. I'm also sad to read he treated you poorly. My heart breaks for you.
You are an incredibly friend with a huge heart and much love to give. Please, sweet soul, share your love with someone who will reciprocate and appreciate it. You are worthy of such.
Please do not take too much stock in the life your former friend presents on social media. Sadly, individuals are frequently dishonest about what they present and who even knows if he truly is happy or not? It might be helpful for you to unfollow him so you are upset and sad every time you are online. At this point, please think of yourself and do what would make you feel most at peace.
Have I answered your question? Is there anything else I can do to assist you further? I want to ensure you are pleased with my service. I also gently request you provide a star rating for me. Of course, we can continue to talk after the rating is provided.
Please take good care of yourself and feel free to contact me with any questions you may have.