Good evening and thank you so much for your message. I realize it's difficult to reach out. Please know I honor your courage.
My name is ***** ***** I am a psychotherapist in the Metro Boston area.
I am so sorry things feel overwhelming. It sounds like there are many layers of things going on and I imagine you are completely at a loss of what to do.
I sounds like there is a massive divide between you and your husband. Have you sat down and spoken with him? Have you told him you are invested in the relationship but feel incredible distance and are unsure as to why he cut you out of the finances? Perhaps you say something along these lines....
"Honey, I love you deeply and want so badly to have a strong relationship with you. Right now, I feel there have been many changes and feel I have been shut out. I am now fearful of our relationship falling apart and want to re-connect with you. Can you please tell me what you are feeling? Why are you distant and cutting me out of our finances? I love you and want to make this work."
I don't ask this in judgement but highly recommend you work on your drinking as this can cause any relationship to dissolve. Are there any resources where you are? Any AA meetings? Therapy groups? If so, please begin attending them so you are in the best place possible.
Please reach out for the help you need. Is there a therapist in the area you can meet with? This would allow you a safe place to discuss your feelings and figure out a long term plan.
Have I answered your question? Is there anything else I can do to assist you further? I want to ensure you are pleased with my service. I also gently request you provide a star rating for me. Of course, we can continue to talk after the rating is provided.
Please take good care of yourself and feel free to contact me with any questions you may have.