It was a very hard decision especially because he and I were great partners. Both in successful, stable careers (which is hard to come by these days) but also I feel its very hard to find someone you are compatible with which we were. Every component for a successful relationship/marriage were there, communication, honesty, trust, friendship, love, respect, humor, stability (financially and emotionally). I am just in shock that because he has 2 beautiful and well behaved children I am surprised that he wouldn't be open to have 1 more child since we are such a wonderful fit.
I am a true believer in love comes first before the baby carriage, and I don't want to make the decision of having a child for the sake of just having one. I want to make sure its with the right partner, and I am taking a leap of faith that it will happen. I worry a lot that it won't happen and I gave up a wonderful and happy relationship for the chance to find that again with someone else.
My generation is so different, I feel like everyone is looking for the better or greatest thing. I didn't feel that with him, we both gave each other the security of a monogamous relationship. We did not want to break up, this is more of my decision than anything, I just don't want to be making a mistake. But I guess I will never know and time will only tell.
Its a hard concept to follow as we did live together and lived a very similar life as a marriage. We talked about marriage and spending together forever. I know every relationship is different, I know I need to move on and let myself heal.
I do think he is making the biggest mistake of his life letting fear and age get in the way. How do I cope with this breakup and should there be communication between us or should I cut all ties?