OK, I just asked, because I saw it advertised but ok ... we can do it like this.
So, this is the story so far:
My ex girlfriend dumped me 1 month ago (we were together for year and a half). The reason she gave me is that she just can't go on like this and that it's just not the same. We never had any problems or fights or violence or anything toxic in the relationship. So it was really a surprise for me and it hurt a lot. But then I analyzed what happened and I think i know what was wrong. About half a year ago I really had a lot of work related stress and it translated onto my personal life and of course to the relationship. I was just not myself, had no energy and just wanted to sit on the couch and watch TV ... so during this time she probably felt like I didn't love her anymore because I also didn't put a lot of effort into the relationship and she got scared and decided to end the relationship because she was probably thinking I was going to do it. I never lost my feelings for her, but I know I didn't provide the effort and affection and special moments she needed. I'm 30, she's 28. She only had one previous boyfriend who cheated on her, but she actually took him back but then later decided that she can't be with him because he cheated. She's a really fragile person deep inside (and a real power-woman on the outside), and she obviously felt that she needed to protect herself and end our relationship. After she gave me "the talk", I just said that I understand. And left.
After that this happened:
1.) We had a long talk a week after the break-up. I didn't beg. It was really sincer, we discussed what happened and what went wrong and I told her I realise my mistakes and I apologise for hurting her and that I would never do them again. I also told her I am willing to work really hard on making it work and proposed that we give it a fresh start.
2.) I try to not initiate any contact (she clearly told me she needs time for herself). This is a bit hard to do, since we work together (same office, just a few meters apart, so we see each other every day at work). I keep the work communication professional and treat her like any other coworker. If that means poking a few jokes now and then, that's it. But I don't talk personal stuff with her or try to talk about the past.
3.) One week after our talk she called me to her desk at work and asked me if I would like to go to dinner with her to a really fancy gourmet restaurant. I was hesitative, because it seemed weird why would you want to go to dinner with someone you just dumped. But she insited and we set a date. It's May 25th (yes, when we set the date if was more than a month ahead). Latter that evening she sent me an e-mail saying she heard a song on the radio that reminded her of me and use and that she's thinking about us. And that she really had to tell me. At first I didn't reply because I didn't know what to say and in the morning I got a text from her saying why didn't I reply that it took a lot of courage on her part to send that and that she's angry with me for not replying. I asked her if she wants to talk. And the next text had even more anger, so I cooled her down and said that the time was not right and that I don't want to fight.
4. One week ago I went sailing with my friends (for one week) and the night before I left she sent me a long text saying that she feels really weird that I'm going without her because we did a lot of stuff together and she's not feeling ok with me going alone. But she wished me to have a nice time. I replied "That's how things are at the moment. Maybe someday things will be different." We exchanged some fun texts during my trip. When I came back she sent me a text "How was it? Hope you had a good time." I answered that it was great but so many things happened that I can't explain them all over a text message and we should get some coffee some time this week so I can tell her about it. She agreed (but we didn't set a date/time. yet).
5. She's visiting some relatives of hers in another country these days and I sent her basically the same message as she sent me before I went sailing. I got basically the same reply. Then we exchanged some fun texts and she found out about some of the stuff that's been going on in my life and I got a "Wow, you really are changing your life for the better a lot."
OK, so this is the storry so far. I've tried to include all the details. What do you think? I still would like to get back together with her. A lot. The relationship we had was really strong before things started to fall apart. Some of our mutual friends told me when they asked her if she wants to get together with me "I don't know. Never say never."
Am I doing things right? What do you think is happening in her head at the moment.