I have been with my partner for 6 1/2 years, i am 38 and he's 54. He was married for 6 years and he divorced 20 years ago. He is depressive and has a history of anger issues, mainly verbal, he looses control and shouts or swears. He was sexually abused as a child, he also had trouble with law. He's unemployed and lives and cares for his elderly father. I fully understand the ordeal he's been through but it is a situation hard to handle. Firstly he has a buggage, apart from his troubled past, he has a family (ex wife, 2 grown up children aged 26 and 29 respectively plus a grand daughter) I feel they are not exactly excited that he met a younger woman. I can say that because i feel left out or not looked straight in the eyes or even avoided in family reunions or meetings. The funny thing is that my partner, whenever i attempted telling him anything, has declined any possibility and even shouted to me: what is the matter and you are accusing my family?! He goes and visits his daughter regularly in their old "family" house, and in the 6 and a half years i 've known him we haven't seen each other many times. I have been to their house a couple of times but the reception was a bit cold, his daughter is always ill or something and his ex in a hurry. His son also talks to me because he has to, and in reunions he will say hello to everyone else and will notice me in the end. He has a daughter of 5 years of age and my partner is all excited he's a grandfather, maybe because he left and broke off the marriage, now he feel he has another chance to make it up and be there, which i understand. But i am young and would like to have kids and start a life, and i don't see him making any move to shake things up a bit, start a family or get a job. He has argued with my family, he had an argument with my sister and was rude to her, my parents think he's not for me and i should go. I have found myself stuck, depressed and unable to make any decision. I work as a carer but my income is not that good to afford a flat of my own with my cats(!). I am saving money though and will get there. The problem is i still have feelings for him that he keeps on destroying day after day. I have tried to support him because i thought that he suffered a lot during his life, but now it seems that i am like a scapegoat for his suffering. While i have become increasingly isolated and often argued with my family in order to defend him,he, instead of trying to mend things up and help our relationship move on, he just likes to do his thing without counting me at all. He obviously likes to involve his ex wife and daughter to our lives. They are the ones he will ask for cat sitters, in the occasion we are out or on holidays. His ex wife will come to the house to cut her father's in law hair (she came and if i had not said hello she would have ran straight in the old man's room...) Is it bad that i am not comfortable with people coming in our house and especially people who don't bother to know me and become freinds? Ok we can be civil in social occasions because obviously we have to, but do they have to come in the house while i am not there, and when she comes will be faking a smile in front of him because she has to and then turn her back? Are there not other hairdressers around? He will give his ex wife lifts to the airport for her holidays, in the middle of the night, he will give his son's and his mates lifts from the club home on a saturday in the middle of the night, he's like a taxi driver, a private chauffeur. He will run in their house to fix sth if needs repairing, go out for shopping for his grand daugher's Christmas presents exclusively with his daughter, as if she owns the kid (they also despise the mother of the little girl, the son's ex girlfriend). He also drove his ex wife and daughter up North for a funeral (her brother died at 60 recently). He thanked me for staying behind to look after his father while he had to travel to support his family. You see i wouldn't mind for any of those things if i could see any light or willingness to build any kind of relationship, but i don't see it coming. And the best for the end, he just told me that he will travel with the ex wife and daughter again on Saturday to go up North again where the son lives, for the grand daughter's birthday. When i asked why i was not told earlier so i can arrange my shifts to go too, he insisted he told me weeks ago, which i don't remember. Even so, he could have reminded me so. The son will be out with new flame, so it will be him ex wife and daughter looking after the child. I said that i don't find it appropriate to go there without me but without demanding him to stay, i just said that he doesn't deal with things properly and he doesn't discuss matters with me before deciding and planning things. He just announced to me that "we are going to Coventry this weekend for Olivia's birthday". I feel frustrated they are going together, in the same house like they are still a couple, playing happy families.