i was in a perfect relation wid my ex since last nov 2011. he was doin everythg to keep me hpy. but i ws being very rude, nasty n bossy.
he said to me in aug 2012 that he can b a friend only. but still was coming in evenin for dinr n callin me to say hi. still i was pushin him to b my bf again.
in aug i cried begged did drama at his work place n even cut my wrist n wrote wid my blood dat i luv u n gv me a chance to b the gal u wan. but he said that he is not god to gv me another chance. n by doing all this i m pushin him away. but i ws nt understanding the situation that time. he tld me that dnt pressurise me. i hv wrk probs, visa probs n other stuff n m becoming prob 4 him too. gv me sum space. m stuck n m just 25. i cnt mary for another 3-4 yrs. so i dnt wan to start all drama again. i hv learnt my lesson hard way. luv gals n relatns r stupid. nvr again i wan all this again. m hpy wid my freedom alcohol n boy frnd's company to hang out. but no gals. u r 28 n being indian i knw u hv society n parents pressure. find sum1 who can adjust wid u n get maried. we hv no future n we cnt hv any future at all.
in last week of sep on my bday he cm to tuk me out for dinr. but i started drama again in car. he dropped me home widot dinr, but called in 20mins to say sory.
dat was last tm i saw him. since den he nvr called me again. he sais if u hv prob, m always dere but nothing more.
i m on limited contact. last time he tld me that when i vil fell dt u r just a frnd, i vil call u myslf, which he did last wednsdy to say hi, nothin more. but whn i called him on sunday, he said i cnt b friend to a person whoin i hd feelings for,its dificult. u n me finish. u need help, m dere as a human to help u, nothin more.
i dont kne wat to do to tell him dat i luv him n wan a chance to start again.
he dsnt wans to talk on any topic to me. he dsnt wans me to send him romantic text on refresh past memories. he dsnt wans to c me cz he probably cnt face me. wat shd do then to start a relation again. i luv him n not goin to gv up, evn if i hv to wait for 3-4 yrs 4 him.