Ransom, I have been wanting to tell u something ever sine u came home… I know it is years too late.
I realize I hv been very selfish. All along I used to think of myself as the one who was hurt badly.. I did not stop to think that I too might hv hurt u in some way. At tht time I though u were in love with some one else so u probably wont mind too much… I am not the type of girl that any one could fall in love with forever :(
i want to say frm the bottom of my heart, Ransom I am truly deeply sorry for causing u any pain.
I used to think of u thru the years.. esp. on the 24th of Sept of every year . every place I went to held memories.. Egmore/Pudupet is full of them!! everytime I pass Taj Coromandel, Nungambakkam – u took me there for a cup of coffee once, remember? Everytime the movie :”Sheena” is telecast on TV – I bet u don’t remember “Sheena” !!!!!! It was difficult to forget u.. what I am saying is that I don’t have only hurtful memories, Ransom, there are good ones too, please don’t feel too bad abt what u did.. I suppose it was just a phase u were going thru….
I used to ask Charmaine (Frantz) abt u but all she said was tht u were married and hv children and tht she saw u sometimes whn u used to come down to India… I used to wondr wht u marriage was like, wht yr wife was like, were you kind and loving to her…
Seeing u sitting behind the wheel of the car reminded me of the little red cycle u had – after mass (Risen Christ church) in the mornings u used to tke me for long rides – did the place look familiar to u?
Aftr we broke up I did not get friendly with anyone for years – there was no one in my life.. util I met oliver and married him in 1998
I can’t understand why you wanted to come home and meet me and my fly.. ..i thought I meant nthing to u and tht u were over and done with me.. It was great to see u again.. it felt so good.. I was so nervous – but I felt self conscious talking to u with yr mother-ion-law, yr wife, my fly all staring at me. !! Sorry abt the long msg… I thought I’d write to yr e-mail add but as I don’t hv it so I thought I’d FB u – I don’t mean to cause any tension between u and Liz and me and my husband – but I just needed to say this- esp after seeing you . when u went away to UK I remember I used to write to u everyday pages and pages – I wonder if u ever read every word – I must hv bored to u death !!!!!
I better end now b4 u start yawning if u haven’t already !! take care Ransom –wishing u and Liz the best life ever
thank you 4 yr msg, u made my day all along i was thinkin dat i was d only 1 dat had feelins 4 u n dat u were forced 2 do things 4 me n was compelled by me 2 b in a relationship.u were not being selfish u did d best thing 4 yr self mary,if u wer wid me i dont no wat would have happened 2 u mary b'cos my jealous rage would've brought out the worst in me.i can look from yr point of view how u felt about me b'cos no woman should not have no fear 2 live wid their partner n should b free from abuse(emotional n physical)no mary u should not feel bad on yr path u were a lovely person it was totally my fault 4 d things i did 2 u.it was difficult 4 me 2 cope at dat time, n i was rushin into things at dat time i didnt let the dust settle instead i made d situation worse.after u done what u done i was runnin in circles n i was unsettled like a wounded lion,i tried 2 win u back but i was goin about it d wrong way n i was gettin a lot of people involved n i was makin a mess of d situation.after u leavin me mary i 2 never got involved wid any1 (woman)i was single till'95 then disaster struck in d mnt of july'95 wen i met aaron's mum in sindhoori(night club)nxt 2 apollo hospital.i just went 4 a fun night out but i landed up wid catrosophy in my hands.mary i'm glad u rememba som pleasant memories v had 2gether i thought u erased all memories of me n u only thought of me as a nightmare.i do rememba all d places v been 2 d park opp indian airlines off.vickys corner, cosmos hotel opp perambur church, srp colony, hotel sembiam etc...etc...well mary give me regards XXXXX XXXXX family tc GOD bless