Thank you for writing to JustAnswer! I will try my best to help you with your feelings of obsessive love for this woman in Russia.
Part of the reason it s hard to let go of this relationship it that it was, essentially, a fantasy relationship. It is so easy for everything to feel perfect when the only interaction you have with each other is email and phone calls.
So this felt like the perfect relationship for awhile. And, nothing happened between you to change that. You didn't have a fight, find out that she snores, or any of the other things that drive wedges between people.
But I think you are right that she was creating an illusion, and using your "romance" to make her boyfriend jealous.
This is a big blow to your ego. Not only have you lost the fantasy of this make-believe romance, you may also be feeling a little foolish that you were "used" by this woman. It's very hard to let go when you feel that you've been misused and misled.
But don't mistake this for love. Love requires two people, and she has made it clear that she's no longer interested in you.
Your pride has been hurt and you probably have a million things you want to say to her---but none of it will make any difference.
Look for a woman who you can actually spend time with...someone who thinks you are exactly the right "type" for them. When you realize that other women will be interested in you, it will go a long way toward helping to forget this unfortunate situation.
This woman was never actually in your life...you are missing what you thought you had--which was not a reality.
I'm sorry you were treated so shabbily by this woman...but remember, that is a reflection on her....not you! You can hold your head up high knowing that you conducted yourself with integrity. She cannot.
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