Thank you Nikki, I am feeling a little better, though not 100% yet.
We talked about Ron before and after all of this time, he still has not made a move to make things more serious between the two of you. It seems to me that he feels more comfortable being friends with you, and since the two of you have been a part of each others lives for so long, he has no problem keeping you in the family because let's face it, you are a part of the family. I don't know if he means to keep you hanging on like this, but it might be a good idea to simply confront him about it and let him know how you feel, because the longer you wait for him to make the first move, or to come up with some type of decision about what's going to happen in your life.
If he does know how you feel about him, then he's not being fair to you.
If he doesn't know how you feel about him,then you're being unfair to yourself.
If you haven't told him, then you have to. This is too long a period of time to go, without getting a definitive answer. You're wasting a lot of time, that could be spent on finding someone who wouldn't be afraid to tell you how they feel or to step up to the plate if needed. You sound like amazing woman, with a lot going for her and a lot of love to give the right person. In some way, you must figure out how to move forward from this point so that you can live a fuller happier life. If that means sitting him down and explaining to him what you want from him and the two of you, or simply letting it go if he has shown no interest in taking things further. You have to look at things objectively and look at your life honestly. Maybe you're afraid to move on? Maybe you think you won't find anything as good as what you once had? But if you don't figure out how to move on from this point, then you can literally not find happiness or the things that are meant for you in your life.
I hope this helps some. Of course, I welcome your thoughts, let me know if you want to talk more. And again, I apologize for the wait. :)