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The pain is totally understandable. You have been through more than the average person could handle. Could we set up a call? I really want to help you, but feel like a call would be best. If not, I understand. I will make this work.
One thing you need to do is give yourself time to heal. Go ahead and cry, but also remember the good times. With all the loss you are going through, it could be many months before you sense normalcy. By the way, that is what grieving is about; accepting the loss and finding a new normal.