Back in 2006 I was prescribed Cymbalta 60mg because I was very depressed and have a lot of pain on my nerve system. Doctors made all tests to find out where the pain came from, and everything went negative, so one doctor told me it was neuropathic pain and other told me it was fibromyalgia.Anyway when I started taking cymbalta I started to feel much better, I move to a different state with lots of sunshine and that help me also, I even started a business and did
really good for years, I was very focus on my business and well concentrated.Over the years I also had to deal with my wife mental health, over several years she went two times to a mental hospital, and based on wrong diagnosis she was told to have bipolar
, but all medications didn't work for her and after several years we ended up looking for solutions in Mexico with a good recognized psychiatrist and psychologist who finally took her off from all those medications and help her with alternative medicine and therapy and she got better, but it took years and I was desperate but at the same time I believe I was able to deal it because of my medications I guess.After looking how good results my wife had, I decided to consult with this doctor also, since now was 10 years that I was taking cymbalta 60mg. I actually feel good with the medication, but I was scared that been 10 years on the medication can produce long term effects that can be worst for my quality of life. I started taking the medication at age 28 until age 38. I was afraid that at age 45 I can deal with worst things, and that's because I started dealing with high blood sugar, and several urinary tract infections since the last 3 years.So I decided to consult with this doctor and her advised was to stop the medication, so for 3 months she lowered my dose from 60 to 40, 30, 20 and nothing, but then after I took off the last pill, I had 2 weeks of hell nightmare
. I have chills every time I remember. I feel like I was dying. Then after several weeks all those hardcore side effects disappeared over time, but then I started feeling change of moods for like a month, then next month anxiety
, now 5 months after not taking cymbalta, I feel like I want to die, but I don't have the courage to take my life, but if I die is something like not big deal that I feel.My business is destroyed, I can't concentrate, I have an online business and just stopped working with my clients because I can't do it, I can't work, can't concentrate on my work. I have this anxiety, so desperate like never before, always sad
, but sometimes just like magic not sad anymore.But everyday since January 2017, is anxiety everyday, sometimes shaking, goose bumps, chills.Went to a neurologist and he prescribed me klonopin, but that thing seems not to work. Yes, I can sleep with that, but I have the feeling that I feel more depressed with that.Bot***** *****ne, I don't know what to do, every doctor has a different opinion, last doctor recommended me magnesium valproate and I really don't understand why, so I decided to not proceed with that and look for more options.I'm scare of anti depressants after those withdrawal effects I had with cymbalta, but at the same time I feel that I need professional help because I can't control my emotions. Please help me!