I have anxiety
. I dont want to take medication, because I have tried and it didnt help very much, other then making me emotionless. I have health anxiety, and when I feel anxious, I am directing it to any measurable area. My breasts are my main focus.
I check them multiple times a day for lumps and/or redness. When I feel anxious, Ill self check. I'll either a. feel nothing and feel better for brief amount of time. b. feel something and have a panic
attack. prompting my to check another 100 times until
I talk myself down and realize it isnt anything. I have had my breast ultrasound, 4 of them last year, with a surgeon. I have also assessed my risk. Which is super low. I do the same action with lymph nodes, another measurable by me, symptom. I believe that
when my health concerns are at bay, Im worrying about my marriage and making issues there. What can I do to help myself? Its starting to make life hard, work hard, and my mood daily is very unhappy. Im like afraid to be happy.