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As you know it would be impossible to diagnose you without a face to face evaluation, but it sounds like you could be suffering from a combination of ADHD and a personality disorder or a mood disorder since you stated that you have always been very energetic. ADHD is a developmental disorder, so you could have had these symptoms of high energy and difficulty to focus and concentrate since you were very young. The increased anxiety, depression, and increased emotions could be a result of severe mood disorders such as Depression or Bipolar Disorder, or it could be a result of a personality disorder, such as Borderline Personality Disorder
(BPD). A more thorough face to face evaluation would be more effective in distinguishing between the two possibilities though. If you have tried multiple medications and therapy without any benefit than ECT could be possible for you as a last resort treatment. Depending on if you are suffering from a mood disorder or a personality disorder the use of Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation (TMS) could also be suggested which would have far less risks than ECT.
OCD is also a possibility if you truly have intrusive thoughts and intense compulsive behavior or it could just be a result of a personality disorder and/or severe anxiety. Either way the typical treatment would be through medications, ECT, or Deep Brain Stimulation to lessen the symptoms of OCD behavior.
I hope this answers your questions and gives you some guidance on this issue. Please let me know if you have any questions or concerns as I am happy to assist and support you regarding this issue.
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