i have been trying to analyze a part of my life that I find difficult to resolve andcome to terms with.
i suffered severe anxiety
as a child when i commenced my schooling at age of 5. I experienced severe anxiety in the mornings which I knew no other way to describe except as stomach pains.I was taken to the local GP by my parents but he told them there was nothing physically wrong with me and left it at that. I experienced this anxiety for about a month at the beginning of each school year(i know this because i remember a teacher reminding me),it resolved once i entered primary school this could of been because my sister was also in primary so it alleviated some of my anxiety.
not get much sympathy or support.initially my parents were sympathetic but then felt hard love was i order so i was physically punished. The teachers rweaction was fustration with me.
On occassions Ihave continued to feel the same level of anxiety when I am changing jobs or even contemplating changes.
As a preschooler my mother described me as being an easy child to care for I could easily entertain myself with drawing /watching television and did not require alot of supervision.i was quiet and spoke only when required.i do remember having a friend down the road which i was forbidden to play with because they were not family friends due to nationality.i would forget this and leave the house to play with her but on return i would be physically punished.
I have discussed this previousy with some people.afriend stated my mother was not supportive ,a psychiatrist stated that my mother was not able to sooth my anxiety.
For years i felt i was a weak individual but i think that was because i was described as a baby.When i asked my mother she stated that i was used to being mollycoddled and was not adjusting well.
i would like some clear insight into what was happening and why i still have a great fear of starting new jobs.