For almost a year now I've been dealing with anxiety
and it started within my relationship with my boyfriend. A month or so after our one year anniversary, we were out to dinner and everything was fine, until I had this random question of "Do I really love him?" and my thoughts went from one thing to another after that. I had my first panic
attack that night. My heart was pounding for 3 days straight and I'm sure my blood pressure was sky rocket, so I made a doctor's appointment. She basically looked at me like I was crazy after what I told her and she told me to go speak with a counselor or psychiatrist. I never ended up going because I thought it was just some weird phase I was in.
For the past year, I've had my ups and downs, but the questions in my head and anxiety have not gone away and they've recently started to get bad again. I know that I love my boyfriend, I wouldn't be with him if I didn't. I just can't come to terms of why I keep questioning everything regarding our relationship. Anything negative that I hear about relationships, I instantly relate to me and my boyfriend and we aren't even on bad terms! We don't fight, we bicker and argue over little things like where we want to eat for dinner, but never anything serious. He treats me the way I've wanted to be treated since I started dating guys. I know that he's the one for me. I can see our future together.
I've also gotten anxiety over thinking about death. I'm a constant worrier and always thinking negatively. I guess my question is what is truly wrong with me? Do I have PTSD from the night I first questioned my love for my boyfriend, or is it just generalized anxiety over everything in life?