Ok. I am scared, I think I am getting better. Remember when I told you how in high school this girl would copy me at EVERYTHING like personality, clothes, style, words, hobbies, etc.?? Well no matter how I try I just CANNOT get the fear out of me that she is going to steal my identity. If she becomes me, I will no longer exist and everyone is going to like her. It was like if I got replaced.
I been searching and searching in google, "Why is it important to be yourself?" and I found interest things such as:
"Suppressing our true self makes us miserable"
"Inauthenticity denies our ability to experience higher spiritual states and experiences like bliss."
and so much more. These are just a few quotes I got from this website. But I can't get over it. No one undertands what I am really going through. It's just me stuck in this nightmare. I HATE her so much for what she did to me. It's such a struggle to live like this thinking she is stalking at me. I just feel like crying right now...I am tiered of this. Then I googled more and found this:
"When you pretend or act to be someone you start to develop that part of that person more and more"
I feel like I am in prison, I hate her! I hate her! I HATE HER!!!! :'(