Thank you for the information.
If the therapist you tried to contact does not respond, you may want to try to contact another therapist. What you are describing to me sounds like depression and without treatment (even just therapy and no mediations) you will have a difficult time feeling better.
It sounds like the root of your depression may be what you went through as a child. Sexual abuse is a horrific experience and can cause all kinds of emotional issues as a result. This is not your fault. Children react to abuse in many ways. Some develop depression, some anxiety
and others feel anger and have difficulty coping. No one comes out of a childhood abuse situation feeling fine. So what you feel is natural.
Along with therapy, you can help yourself at home. There are numerous resources that address sexual abuse and that can help you learn more about ways to help yourself. Here are some resources to get you started:
The Courage to Heal 4e: A Guide for Women Survivors of Child Sexual Abuse 20th Anniversary Edition by Ellen Bass and ***** *****
The Sexual Healing Journey: A Guide for Survivors of Sexual Abuse, 3rd Edition by Wendy Maltz
Adult Children of Abusive Parents by Steven Farmer.
Also, if you cannot get help through any local therapist, you may want to try on line therapy. By seraching on line therapy in a search engine, you can find someone you can talk with etiher through Skype or via chat who is qualified to help you work through your issues.
I hope this has helped you,