hows your mom?
id get dressed for the boiler guy and me? and ok i didnt have makeup on.. but he still hit on me... no hair style just down, it was clean and it looke dok, and then pjs? not sexy not esp pretty. literally pjs worn for the hosp. so presentable that my family would be coming.. (although they didnt come see me at the hosp.. who knew right? well i shudve i admit..although i was told by staff drs to nurses residents ooh pretty pjs..)
dressing for women is a mixed feeling thing its both for yourself, men and other women honestly... some men catch subtlities and others dont... like tmm1.. he likes feminine things. my husband likes slutty things. which makes me wonder why were together at times. i mean i admit that im not inot sci fi, and he doesnt like sports, i never really dressed slutty. soemtimes a little revealing, but i always dressed nice... i would think guys wouldnt want their female counterpart dressed that other men were like oh shes slutty..
anyway itd be for me and him. and who said death warmed over? hey.
ii admit no makeup option is not soemthing i like to do.. but..
speaking of men and crazy, dr b had a pt of mine who was full on crazy. she was 29 but looked younger - alot younger- like 19 or so- and she came in screaming and crying after taking valium seroquel cymbalta, and more, saying i want to die i want to die, she admitted to using pcp and he tells me shes hot. i told him you need f**king help. i said you have aproblem like youre actually attracted to crazy women she just swallowed a f**king pharmacy. how do you find that attractive? hes like thats not but she is. i said look, shes a drug addict. if she was an appy and he said it. id be like ok.. but she wasnt that pretty she was overdone with the hi lites i hate - the ones that match up in the middle like doll hair.. (which is why i go to the city to get mine..)
dr a bought lunch again and i didnt partake. also i saw him and the nurse interacting and looking very couple like - like very obviously. there wasnt any touching or anything but.. theyre so obvious... i had to look away. i had to watch a one to one observation on a guy who had ta***** *****ucinogens for a few minutes and i was sitting in the chair in the hallway, and then he walked by - seemeingly surprised i was there (his attention to detail is f**king awesome) and hes like oh are you ok? i said yes... he said youre sitting in the hallway. i aid yeah watching a pt.. he said oh..
no im not stupid about VDAY . i mean we never were crazy with it and are usually broke at this time of the yr.. i think b/c of christmas... an d weve had soem tough yrs...
i am working ot on thursday. i spoke to peter and im working a day shift and i said triage por favor. i said out front triage. he said oh just pile on the demands. well see. i said peter itll be my 4th day in a row.. pls. i offered either a wed night or thu during the day and he chose the day.. he said any other demands? i said yes id like a pony. (whats wrong with me? this is why people think im f**king crazy.. but then again how crazy could i be? dr b doesnt wnat to f**k me.. thats a good barometer for crazy id say... i just thought of that im going to tell people ask joe if that girls hot and if he says yes call a psych consult..)
anyway we need the money pretty badly the chairs are coming on the 28th, and my paycheck will have the extra ot pay - $550 or so and then i will have an extra $200 for the holiday pay from today...
im expecting a disability check but have no idea when i twill be coming. im hoping i cna pull another day i guess of ot - in 2 weeks maybe to get one on the next check... and hopefully that ll be it. if i really hate the ot i pull this week i wont do i tagain.
rob omn the other hand was like you cna make like $600 doing an extra night? and why havent you been doing this? i said i dont know look at how my jobs have been. so stressful i feel like im going to lose my license.. its not good for sure.
i said you shud pull ot on a sat. he said he has nothing todo at work all week. i said so... youre unhappy about that? he said no, but i cant justify coming in ona sat. i said and why are you so pissy to me after i got this job by begging eddie?
he said well its stressful here. i said were youre f**king fmaily. how is that stressful? even i dotn find it that stressful. i mena i do when soemones screaming for 9 hrs..
oh and peter and i spoke for afew minutes and he sad how are things going? i said good. he asked about the kids and i showed new pics, he told me andrew looked like he was a yr old.. i said oh he doesnt look tht big.. ok hes big steve what can i say?
he said oh shes cute.. about kate and said i never saw pics of her. i said yeah she was usually a reg pic taped to my computer (i mainly do that when im sad..)
he aske dif im having another.. i sa dwell not now. i said. i did have the thought like peters treading in murky water.. but i domnt get how people there domt get busted for the things they do. but i did try to take it that he was asking in a friendly way...
i said i wanted 3 originally, but y husband only wanted 2. i explained how kate was hard with her hip and her colic, and how andrews been hit in the head with a ball and he had his little hand stuck and he didnt cry and i said im afraid hes going to lure us inot a false comfort and then well have the next kid wholl be hell on wheels again.
he said does he ever cry? i said yeah he has acid reflux but i started the zantac and hes been alot better. but he just makes noises and gets antsy and i know hes hungry and i feed him and hes a good boy.
he told me he knows that whole thing about the kids in the bed and they wanted 3 til they had one of his daughters and said she was very good birth control.
anyway he said that i had a good chance at traige, he has to make the schedule. and he asked if i took the triage class. i sai dyeah with christine when i was trianing and ive been out there before and im signed off. (f**k steve its 2 years. no wonder why im never out there. he doesnt even know. i said peter i wa striage for a few weeks when i was the end of my preg. and i was beofre both main and walk in triage..)
ugh. maybe i need to talk to him more and pump myself up to him? im too undercover?
as far as kates bday. well the party will be private no matter what time it is. i dont like things where other people can come near my guests. i know im controling but thats how i like it. if its a restaurant it has to close. and if they wont. i wont have it there. its non negotiable.
unless theres a section away from other people like a room etc. but if i basically book out a restaurant.. no you have to close.
and i dotn like my guests paying a nickel for anything. i told them ill pay to let the air hockey to be open unlimited, and anything else and the woman said ok.
and seamus is pathological. and pre cana is where a couple teaches couples getting married about "relationships" and marriage. like finances and settling diagreements and they ususlaly teach birth control but theyre not supposed to.
anyway its about respecting your spouse etc. and the plan to raise your fmaily catholic yawn.
pre cana comes from - the wedding in cana where jesus turned he water into wine...
see you learned soemthing.
either way. the 2 of them need to get a priest to exorcise that kid and im not kidding. theres real problems there. jen told me the leader of the group loves nancy and she has a ton of playdates etc and shes never leaving the group. i sai dthat sfine but that doesnt mean its ok for him to beat up my daughter. is aid yeah she has to do all that crap to make up for him. who the hell would put up with this if she didnt do all this crap?
an cuz im a full time working mom where theres practically no moms in the group who are.. well i guess im not as good of a mom.
esp since i dont have the same amt of time like they do.
and i wa sinsulted when jen sent me that whole text. i told her im not impressed they teach pre cana. big f**king deal. and i told her im still not having tht animal and me spending 1k on my daughters party and hell ruin it? no dont think so.
have to run to work . ttyl