Hi, it's good to talk with you again!
It sounds like what is going on with your therapist is his therapeutic approach is affecting how you feel about your past. In other words, you feel the need to talk about your past and your therapist's approach is to focus on your present and future feelings.
From what you said about him, it seems that you can trust your therapist. That may not be the issue as much as the differences in your needs compared to what type of therapy your therapist practices. You feel the need to work through your past, which is most likely the cause of how you feel now. But your therapist is redirecting you to focus on things like your future, which while in therapy may make sense to you but after you leave, your focus goes back to your past.
Working through your past, even if you do not remember much of it (very typical for someone who has experienced abuse or neglect
), is important to you. Expressing this need to your therapist can help you deal with your feelings around it. The only issue is whether or not he might be willing to focus on your past in therapy. He may not and that leaves you with two choices- continue working with him and not dealing with your past in therapy (maybe on your own) or switching therapists to someone who does work with past history to solve current issues. While this may not be appealing either way because you like working with this therapist, unless he is willing to change his approach, that may be what you are stuck with.
You also can research your past on your own. It is not the best path to take because the support from a therapist would help you work through it. But if your past is bothering you and you feel the need to address it, then you can use self help to explore your issues.