Thank you for your reply.
I can imagine how anxious and worried you may be feeling now.
It sounds like you have too much on your plate now. You have a 1 year old who constantly needs your care and attention. You are concerned about your child and father a lot. You work 12 hours 3 nights a week due to your ER job. It appears your anxiety has worsen lately as you are working too much and/or you have a lot of things on your mind.
Have you had a physical check-up lately?
If you are physically fine, I would advise you to see a psychotherapist to express and process your feelings and thoughts and get advice and support WEEKLY. A combination of psychotherapy and pharmacotherapy are considered to be effective to treat Depression and anxiety. Cognitive-behvaior therapy (CBT) will work for Anxiety.
The book The Relaxation & Stress
Reduction workbook by Dr. Davis et al. may be useful for you to learn how to manage anxiety and stress better.
If you are open to counseling, you may ask your doctor for a psychologist/psychotherapist that you can work with weekly. Or you may call your insurance company and get a list of providers (licensed psychologists or psychotherapists) in your area.
Or, you can search a licensed psychologist on internet- such as the PSYCHOLOGY TODAY website. Go to (http://therapists.psychologytoday.com/ppc/prof_search.php?iorb=4764) and enter your zip code and optional category of specialty such as Anxiety. Read psychotherapists’ profile to see if he or she specializes in Cognitive-behavior therapy and Anxiety. You may also want to create your mental image of psychotherapist that you want to work with – Male or female? To note, many therapists offer initial consultation for free. So you can see it as an informational meeting. You can ask any question and negotiate psychotherapy fee.
If you have no health insurance or need a low fee counseling, you may call The United Way toll free # 211 (Dial 2-1-1)to find the community mental health centers in your area in which you can get counseling even without health insurance.
Regarding pharmacological treatment for depression, a number of antidepressant medications are available to treat anxiety.
Finding the right medication for you will likely take some trial and error. It is necessary for you and your doctor to work together to find the right medication for you.
Also, a heart-healthy diet like Omega 3 fatty acid may improve your brain functioning and mood. Focus on fruits, vegetables and whole grains. Choose low-fat protein sources, such as fish, lean meat and skinless poultry. Hydrate yourself during daytime.
Physical activity increases blood flow to your whole body, including your brain. This may help reduce your anxiety.
In addition, yoga, biofeedback, acupuncture, and massage therapy may be helpful to improve your mood.
Other recommendations are:
Avoid excess use of alcohol and drugs.
Sleep in complete darkness and try to be out in bright light during the day.
Spend time in nature weekly
Try to have pleasurable activities with friends and family.
Choose to listen to sounds that have positive effects on your mood.
I hope you get well with all available help.
Please let me know if you have more questions or I have overlooked any. Warm regards,