Oops. Wrote this A few hours ago, but accidentally didn't post it. I have to say .... I'm not mad about P's brother coming up anymore (see original post below). Some hard yard work was a good way to start the day ....
I agree it's a good idea for Linda to be more forceful. I understand it's difficult for her to see me struggle, too. But I know myself and I will avoid. She knows that, too, but I think she is afrai of pushing too hard. We talked about this once months ago, and she was glad I said something and she just said that of I really don't want to do something or need to stop, I need to let her know. I imagine she'll be even more timid after the EMDR thing and my being upset with her. But I'd rather she Push than have to go through this multiple times.
Not thrilled this morning. I was sleeping
in and p decided. It to go to church and had texted her brother to let him know. And he showed up here at 8 am to help us with some yard work??? The dogs went crazy. I obviously got up, and of course I'm goin to do hard work, because I'm not going to let someone else do work on our house while I am inside. So much for down time. I'm not really happy.
I do feel differently in dealing withy parents. I can't totally pinpoint what it is. I'm not angry, really. I just see that I don't need their input or permission. It's weird. I represent my Dad's bank on all bankruptcy matters. He is the CEO, and he and all of the officers there do what I advise. But in personal matters, it was different.
And I dont talk to them as much. or to my sister and brothe I guess. But my parents seem to sense something too. They have been out of their way supportive to basically anything I say. I feel like they feel they were very close to crossing the line with Katie's funeral and stuff. Plus, my dads best friend just found out he has cancer, and I think my dad is feeling his own mortality.
I don't know. But thing are different in some way.
Off to do some yard work. Uggg.