Dear Dr. Greene,
Yes, I've tried all the meds:SSRI's, MAOI's, SSNRI's, Seroquel, Abilify, Lamictal, ad nauseum. I keep getting worse. I beleive that, at best, psychotropic meds take the edge off depression. Then you can apply yourself to the hard mental work of recovering. I've worked hard for years and I feel as though I've lost to a superior adversary. I'm the depressor annd the depresee.
Here's the picture: I'm driving in my car, hiking up a mountain, writing, reading, web-surfing, anything. Out of nowhere, a black pseudopod creeps into my brain and I start crying. I say, aloud, "Leave me alone". Who am I talking to? Beats me.
I need information. I want to know why no one cares to be around me, or if I live or die; why my children, whom I shielded and nurtured, have turned on me; and why I hate myself. I'm fighting for my life.
That's it in a tiny nutshell.
Person's Gender: Male
Person's Age: 54