You're welcome, Kathy! I am happy to be here for you, anytime.
The trauma you went through caused many deep emotions. It is quite normal for you to feel down, depressed, sad and anxious. It is also normal for you to feel anger, rage, and want revenge. The feelings probably feel fresh to you because you are just getting back in touch with them.
When trauma happens to someone, they cope in different ways. But no matter how you respond, your mind tries to protect you. The initial shock causes your defenses to go up. And depending on your coping mechanisms, your defenses may stay up (most people's do) and you have to work to allow the true feelings about the trauma to come through. This is where you are now. You are very similar to soldiers from the war, abuse victims and people who have gone through such things as 9/11.
It does not feel good to feel sad all the time. And it is hard work to go to therapy and face your feelings. But this is a process. You are healthy. You are facing your feelings. And you are consistent at trying to deal with how you feel. All of those signs mean that you will get through this and feel better someday.
Your therapist realizes that just because you do not talk about your trauma each time you see her that you are over it. You could never maintain facing your trauma that often. No one could. Your therapist knows this. You also need to work on other things you feel, because it is part of the whole picture. People are complex and so there needs to be a lot of leeway in therapy to help cope with all feelings that come up.
You are not alone with how you feel. I am glad to be here for you and help you through this. You are very brave to face what you have been through and I feel honored to be there for you.