I have a question. I had a situation that happened to me when I was 15 and my sister was 10. We had some kind of sexual play, I guess you call it- but you know in my 15 years of age..it was MORE than a play. I never had sex b4 that, and actually was a virgin until I was 30. I am married now, and I am 33. Well, I have been seeing a psychiatrist, do not see him often now, maybe once a year, and I have been on some meds for about 10 years now. On 2 meds- Zyprexa and Zoloft. My mom took to a Doctor, because my grandma thought I was weird, god knows maybe that was true, maybe not. Anyway, when I am on a full dosage of the meds, I feel fine. When I start decreasing them (I want to finally quit), I start having weird thoughts. Well, I wake up with the thought of " what happened with me and my sister", that's one thing. And, then, the thought kind of haunts me throughout the day. I get these hysterical cries sometimes (not lately) like OMG- I am not a abuser, I did
not abuse my sister. It's horrible. When my doc gives me the full dosage again- this "Thought" just goes away completely, and I am happy. Are these thoughts some kind of a effect of me decreasing my med, or should I see a therapist. I AM not sure why I start having these horrible things happen to me- like this horrible hysterical crying??