I've had sleeping problems...
I've had sleeping problems since my return from Spain in 1972 to get a divorce from my French husband and also try to recover from a 5-year off and on, mostly on, bout of diarrhea, which was finally diagnosed as proteus at the America Hospital in Paris. I saw the best French GI doctor there, known as the best. I took the antibiotics given me, but have had bouts of diarrhea all my life (I'm now 75). I also could hardly sleep when I returned. I had loved Europe, but no longer loved my husband and had always had a horrible relationship with my mother. I went from sleeping pills to Sinequan (down to 100 pounds; I'm 5'5inches tall) and then Ativan after a second divorce. I'm a Berkeley grad, have had novels published and have always had confidence in my intellect, but have been emotionally vulnerable. For the past 7 years, I've been taking 2 mg. of Klonapin h.s. I've never smoked anything, cigarettes included, mostly because they disagreed with me. I was a big party girl and still love to host international students and be in a highly intellectually stimulating and nourishing atmosphere. I was still pitching my screenplays and trying to finish my novel, ***** ***** AMERICANS, (I'm white, but independent, middle class). About four months ago I began to lose my motivation. I started having the sleeping problems again, so I upped my dosage of Klonapin (doctor hesitant, but trying to help) to 2.5 mg. h.s. I am somewhat depressed although I keep trying to reboot my former, radiant self. I can't see going to a drug clinic at my age; I think it would kill me.
Doctor's Assistant: How long have you been feeling this way? Have you reached out to anyone about this yet?
My boyfriend, who is only 53 years old, and also my psychiatrist, whom I see once every two months. I have an HMO. He has suggested that I up the Sinequen instead of the Klonapin, but I become famished, and I'm close to 160 pounds. I come from a slender, ectomorphic family.
Doctor's Assistant: Anything else in your medical history you think the doctor should know?
Dr. Polo already knows just about everything. He's terrific but I'm perhaps having a hard time getting older, which didn't hit me until lately. I produced my own movie, TOUCH OF THE DEVIL, at age 67, edited it with the help of Max Margolin who is about to release his first movie. Mine was considered for international release by Ghost House. The French family I married into was not only a wealthy one, but they had an internally famous poet in it. I have lots of confidence in that domain. However, I hate to see myself ... shall we say, getting tired before my time. My parents lived into their nineties. My sister is in near perfect health.