I'm Lucy, and I'd be happy to answer your questions today. I'm sorry to hear about your situation.
The California courts put all of the forms needed to file for divorce online, along with instructions, so you're not required to pay a lawyer to do the divorce if you don't want to. These forms come at no cost to you. This site has all of the information you need to proceed with the case.
There are several links to forms within that document, but this site also has all the forms in one place (they're the same forms - just a different way to find them). Read through the process first, then fill out and print the forms you need.
Once you have the documents printed, you sign them and file with the court, along with the current filing fee. These vary by county, so call and check. Most counties will allow you to file by mail if you don't want to or aren't able to get to the courthouse. Then you serve them on your husband, either by having a third party hand him the papers, or asking a third party to mail them along with a notice of receipt. Step-by-step instructions are on the first website I linked.
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