you know what, i think he's destroying me with his problems, or my problems gets bigger not being around people of my quality.
thing is. structure gives safety, it makes you who you are, and you're suppose to suffer a lil in life to become who you are, and find a good path, and not a path to destruction, therefore i try to protect myself from harm by avoiding the path of destruction, but get a life where i am myself but with consequences of the life that surrounds us. not like me where i go all out to have right, but live with people who can be there to protect you from what is outside, cause i need help, this way we can fight together to become who we suppose to be and live the life we're meant to live. there is enough people who need help in the world, and being capable of doing so is way more important than your every day need, and that's why i struggled so hard, cause people tried to control you to fit your needs, but forgot explain why, and why other people are bad to the world:) but i guess that's what suffering is and when you get there you get there, luckily i found a path to go and get where i need to be, but it all got messed up by my need to be right instead of getting a need covered long time ago, cause noone asked anyone what was wrong with me. this is why you can't make a superior country or a perfect world for people, cause the ego has beaten most of us down and this results in a dangerous world, cause the ego of the world has taken control of the good in the world, and misinterpretations makes it worse and worse. not coping is not a good deal. industrial and service isn't a good deal but i guess it's necessary to provide a life at this coast, and that's why you need a planned structure to live your life and be protected if you don't have the right benefits to live a normal life, then you need help understand your principles but avoid yourself from destruction. luckily i found a path to end it and not destruct myself before i found peace. always wanted to be jesus:) i think you get it, you should never been in the hands of someone who did all that crap to you and everyone else and i think it's result of your country, so is most countries after service and industrial breakthroughs, making life easier for yourself at all times is surely not the picture people should be having. our goal is to work not stop your own growth. ofcourse safety is really important but with a grasp of a good standing and hope for yourself, without a destruction path.