hi you. back yet? wrote for you in meanwhile.
Well we had things going and things were fine, but then i realize that I was actually not trying to get help, but be a person and i needed care to not feel alone, damn i've been so lonely, if it wasn't for you, things would just gone bad. Ok so i had issues talking to people, and i am still very stubborn, and i wanted to help myself, but maybe it's just an excuse cause i didn't do what i wanted the most, all cause you're in a poor shape you kinda block the most important, your happiness, and your intelligence, your wisdom. All cause it's all happening cause you're you, you just need to accept that fact, but luckily i got a lot richer as a human being doing whatever i did, and now i know what i might be wanting. I've always wanted people and i just need a way to get there and meet them. The only struggle i have right now is where to find the people i actually wanna be with that can giv eme something, so i can give to others and teach them what i know. Without people you're just a lost soul.
Well first of all i wish i had a way to deal with people with the frustrations they got, without actually talking, cause if i start to talk about stuff i've done previously that surely ain't gonna work, cause they do not understand how much it would give them, you can't really say that life is gonna be happiness all the way, cuase that's setting the goal too high, and being serious about what you want with getting people on the right track cause that's what you're here for, but if they become upset by your negativity(feelings talk), then i need other resorts to make them feel allright. All i want is make another person happy every day, cause that's just the way i wanna be, but my person has to be able to as well if they are gonna do it. I was so afraid, of not succeeding, i let it get in the way of getting things done. Noone is actually trying to do what i want them to tho(accepting ithat peple ain't doing as you want at all times is kinda scary, but sometimes you wish you had someone that enjoyed what you enjoyed, you seem to be one of those). How do you make people care what I want them to care about, and not just make their own plans? I tried for so long to make them listen, but it's quite a waste. I need to councellor them to make them help me. Not all of them but most of them. Maybe they're just not my people.