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Doesn't really matter for the point of our discussion but your saying you were OK with suffering and getting worse was one clue. But we've neatly gotten off course here--back to just because you don't want to go to treatment or don't think you're ready is absolutely no argument against biting the bullet and going.
Too late--it's already that bad.
Same answer--watch your blood pressure.