Damn Martin! You are bloody good at this! More than you know. I am the angry girl, I really have been distraught and trying to stay busy, but I'm starting to feel calmer and much better.
And the guy - so funny you said that - because when I met him he was kind of geeky and read a lot, and sweet and that was when I loved him so, but then he moved to NYC and became "cool" and tough acting, and trying to impress someone, or himself with this new persona he put on.
And he seemed less kind, less relaxed, less the boy I fell in love with. So I did feel like that boy died in a way, and never understood this change, but felt sad about it. And then he just got controlling and over the top in every way. So I had to go. And so the death of the relationship and the dream of it.
Painful, very painful, but I had to leave. You are right about the house on both points. I was initially very fearful of being all alone- physically and I had believed he was the "one" who got me. But was sadly mistaken. And I am staying at my brother's house which is in the country, with much space inside and outside of it. Yes, I am here figuring it all out.
The message on the porch. That is brilliant Martin! That is so perfect! (Why didn't I think of that!?) (Oh, I guess i did! =)
Well, compliments to the dream interpreter I'm seriously impressed. Thank you. That actually helps me a lot. Really does. =)
Have a lovely and peaceful day. Thanks again.