gem-ok so ouch!!! had majorbreakdown and spoke mindto mother…

I am so proud of you! GOOD that your mom gets it. Now if your sister would also "get it"...

I would humbly suggest that when you txted your guy you possibly said something that can be taken two different ways. Missing the voice inflection...sometimes things are just not interpreted quite as we mean them to be. Besides that, you ARE sweet. But you might want to review the message you sent and see for yourself :-)

In this pullback that I sensed coming from him since your trip, I have also gotten that he has also always stayed feeling optimistic and hopeful, just somewhat unsure of his footing. He had almost completely convinced himself that you were going to return from your trip having made the decision that you didn't want to see him anymore. He is still not sure that you are not arriving at that conclusion, and so this pullback is his lack of confidence, his own wall of emotional insecurity that from time to time pops up and requires reassurance.

It's not that he doesn't care for you or will even ever NOT care for you. That is why this uncertainty on his part is so difficult to pin down and explain.

It is understandable that you are sort of confused. You both are equally confused and sending each other "mixed signals" just now. Some face time conversation when you are feeling well and not harried by other things would be the best thing to resolve this. Clear speaking and clarity of intention, even if it is one. day. at. a. time. is the best remedy.

And of course, in your favor, everything that could possibly be interpreted as negative is also colored with the rosy tint of the approaching holidays. Conversely, the holidays often also bring their own special variety of stress.

Everyone is trying so hard, and maybe too hard to meet everybody else's expectations! It is no different with him. To some extent with yourself. Although you seem to have a firmer grasp on what is realistic and know when to do your own pulling back when it all gets to be too much.

I'm curious as to what your impression was of the attorney? How did that make you feel?

Continuing to speak clearly, truth in love, nothing hasty. You are doing just fine. And I continue to you send you healing and supportive energy.

Sorry, typos.

Can't correct those in chat. Sorry I missed seeing you online, but you know I will respond to you as soon as I see your notification. Have a really good day.

You seem surprised that he thinks that was sweet?

That IS sweet.

I think it's sweet.

You have a good healthy grasp on the entire "knight in shining armor" myth. Sometimes we have to be self rescuing princesses.

That is very painful. I feel that coming from you all the way over here. I want to encourage you not to be discouraged. All that you are saying feels so dark when you are in the midst of it. I do know this. I honestly KNOW this. But it is not as bad as it looks from where you are currently sitting.

Are you paying the expenses for the house by yourself and no help from the ex at all?

There's so much more for you.

You have too many things all at once here. I would like to take one thing at a time if that is ok with you. Please don't cry ok?

Oh. So the house you are trying to "save" is not the house you are living in.

Ok. I understand.

Yes you have self doubt. New guy has self doubt the same as or equal to yours.

Yes, so you will want to respond to him in the same way that you like to be responded to. That will help even all of that uncertain energy out so you can deal with it.

Bingo.

It helps when you understand it. :-)

Getting to the understanding is more than half the battle.

The attorney was not for your divorce then? That was "mom" stuff?

I don't understand why you should have to file bankruptcy because of a house that is not yours. Or was the attorney saying that MOM has to file bankruptcy?

Yes, but this legal stuff, every bit of it... is a cloud with a silver lining.

ooooooooooh.

Wow.

Question.

Is the house worth more or less than the mortgage amount?

Yuck.

Oh ok.

Are you going to walk away from it?

Selling it then?

You are a smart cookie.

:-)

You can't even rent it out?

Or offer a lease with option?

She doesn't live there!

It's in your name.

And you are letting her make the decisions?

I hope you are seeing the flaw in that.

Until somebody makes bad decisions and then the smart one needs to take the reins and get it done correctly. That would be you.

She let a third party take a second on the house?

O. My.

And that is the mortgage you are paying.

Or having to file bk against.

Or sell to resolve.

For the nephew.

Ok.

That's better.

Right.

You love that house. There is no option for you to live in it I suppose.

Seems like the perfect mode to put distance between yourself and the ex if you could pull it off without causing yourself hardship.

Ok.

I know.

But it is just never ending.

Transparent. It is that indeed. Oh you are getting it. I am so proud of you. You have no idea.

:-) Don't go doubting yourself now.

I knew that trip was going to be good for you. Look out world. Mama is home.

You got it nailed. You really do. That's awesome.

Delayed is better than never. You just needed some space to clear the head.

Stream. And... lake, yes.

Great river? Or stream? Yes.

It is interesting that you mention that. Yes, ritual baths, for cleansing of the toxic energy... showers... all very good for you.

A mermaid :-)

You can recover from that if you want to, but I think you have enough else to think about for the time being.

Another time you can devote to that.

Just be patient and tolerant with new guy and his insecurities.

Not in a good way, no. He was sad about that possibility and he has been feeling somewhat inadequate.

His sense of inadequacy is what makes him pull back because he thinks... well... sort of that if he can't be everything to you then he should be nothing sometimes. But he doesn't always feel that way either. He fluctuates in this.

And it is NEVER because he doesn't care for you.

Sometimes he feels selfish. Sometimes he thinks you are selfish.

Yeah you both like to take center stage.

You have to be able to compromise on that.

That fire can be both passionate and destructive. You have to wield it with skill.

:-)

I hope he sees it as well as you do.

Men are often not quite as "in touch" with that side of things.

Oh but he will forget. Again and again.

Not all. Most. :-)

You sound better.

I was afraid you were going to cry. Sometimes that is necessary and it is ok, but not necessarily when you need to think.

Oh always. Yes. He is starting to relax now. He will probably go all insecure again after the holidays though.

He's going to do something that he thinks will disappoint you and even if you are ok with it and totally understanding he is going to make himself feel like a jerk.

Could be.

So if you are really OK with what he needs to do, just be prepared that he is going to need a lot of reassurance.

And even then he probably won't be convinced that you mean it.

You know how that goes.

Yes and on your planet and mine, that would be perfectly understandable. On his... he's thinking oh man...she is crushed already.

He is trying to figure out how to make up for it.

Not sure he can.

Oh. Because he is conditioned to think that most women are passive aggressive and usually mean something other than what they actually say.

Right. And he should spend time with her kids. And that is great.

He's sweating YOUR money issue?

With the house?

Oh I see.

Right, when you tell him about your problems in the interest of honesty, he has the natural inclination to want to FIX things for you and make them all better and it adds to his insecurity that he can't.

And sometimes he thinks that you want him to fix things when in fact you are only offering information.

And you might alleviate some of his insecurity if you made sure that you are only offering information and do not expect him to remedy the situation.

I mean make sure to tell him that sometimes.

That is good that you tell him you are looking for his opinion. That is great. Very helpful.

I think he still sort of feels that kind of pressure though. Oh and then there is this. lol. Unbelievable. He also seems to think you NEVER need him to fix anything and feels unneeded. lol. Sorry. I shouldn't laugh.

You see why I have trouble explaining his insecurity to you sometimes.

It changes.

It's like a see saw.

So we saw. :-) He doesn't want to make any mistakes.

He doesn't want to blow it. He often thinks he can't quite cut it.

When you finally get divorced he is going to be absolutely terrified and thrilled at the same time.

Oh yeah. There is some measure of security there that you are not entirely "available". It's also a barrier when he wants to be closer. He both hates it and takes comfort in the fact that you are not divorced yet.

A divorced party?

Oh it helps, yes. Until he starts thinking too much again and talking himself down again....and then you will have to say something like that again, but that is ok too.

lol about the party. No don't go quietly lol.

No not more to one side or the other, not yet anyway. We can look at that when the time gets closer, but you know he is going to need constant reassurance that he is just ok just the way he is and he doesn't need to be perfect or a miracle worker. Sometimes just sharing the burden emotionally is all that is needed. And that in itself is some form of perfection.

The neat thing about this relationship is that even if you don't stay together as a couple you will always have a special bond. This is a karma buddy for life. And that isn't half bad. If you go long term with him, bells and rings, that is nice too, but it won't even be necessary for the two of you.

Neither does he. But he thinks you do.

So when you get ready to cross that bridge, keep that in mind. He will need more reassurance lol.

I am just not looking that far ahead at him. You have too many potential bumpers to hit between now and then. We need to keep you on the happy path from here to there.

:-)

I'm not saying he won't change his mind. Right here and now and this week and next week and we still need to keep an eye on the ex... that is more important just now.

He's up to something. Too quiet. Oh. He is waiting for something to happen? Or someone? Oh. That person he thought he might be hoping to spend holidays with. He is waiting.

He is hopeful and waiting.

Little too smug thinking everything is just going to go his way.

I still do not see her. No. I don't see her at all. I see her as through him, and then not at all. I kind of think someone is toying with him as he toys with others and this is going to enrage him when he finds out.

I'm sorry. I honestly just don't see her. I don't see WHO. Can you please excuse me for just a moment? I will only be a moment.

Sorry for the interruption.

You think it is her. I kind of don't think it is her, but I can't see for sure.

Skinny redhead maybe but this, too, is vague for me. That could be anybody or nobody.

That could be his imagination I am reading.

When he finds out he is being played. Yes.

The intentions of the person he thinks are not at all what he thinks.

I do not see enough about her to speculate. So I won't.

Just keep your eyes open. It's not going to play out pretty for him.

Ok. What I see is that this might not even actually be a woman. It might be a man pretending to be woman as in on the internet, and someone he has not even met, which is actually quite possibly why I also cannot see "her".

He is going to get taken in a big bad way.

By taken I mean duped.

Make sense? I can't see her because she doesn't actually exist. That is more and more strongly what I have been feeling.

oooh.

That odd stuff I had in the reading the other day. Arcane technology. You said dark magic. Does he buy that stuff on eBay?

Maybe that has something to do with it.

I get the feeling that he is almost giddy like a little kid in anticipation of this... whatever it is...

So you understand the impact it is going to have when the pendulum swings the other way.

Wouldn't vintage bike parts be arcane technology? Maybe?

Oh he's going to go ballistic.

But people don't usually meet people on eBay do they?

Vintage.

You said vintage, right?

Oh I am thinking archaic lol.

Arcane is more like... mysterious.

Like eBay. ROFL. Just kidding.

Well he is so SET on this happening it is like the floor is going to drop out from under him when it doesn't.

You should be so lucky.

It's something incredibly significant to him.

Well not if you happen to be in the path of his wrath when it doesn't work out for him.

So you need to be prepared to sidestep that when it comes your general direction.

He will probably try to take it out on you even though you have nothing to do with it.

You certainly want to try to avoid being around him then. And I saw and still see this around the 20th or a little after.. maybe the 21st or so...

Oh! What does it say?

Take it out of your house.

Your purse I mean.

huh.

Don't take the envelope home with you.

Throw it away on the way home. And not in your office. Somewhere else. Not the payment :-) Just the envelope.

Yeah that's nice. Get rid of it.

K?

Don't throw it away in your work place. Somewhere else.

It depends on the intention of the delivery. It could be nothing. But it could be something. You are not accepting any strange things from him.

Yeah it sounds like a prayer. And it sounds like a threat.

And it sounds like just a nice sentiment.

Get rid of it.

If it is remotely threatening take it to the police.

Don't call him and don't text him.

Don't.

He wants you to engage. Don't.

ok.....

Odd. But ok.

Don't call him and don't text him.

Not about this.

I guess you should probably keep it but not at home.

How can you keep it without taking it home with you? Do you have a safe deposit box?

You ok?

Well if you think he is suicidal you should still show the police. Or someone. But I don't see that he is. I do believe that he is messing with you in another cruel plot he has concocted and wants you to engage. Keep it. But don't take it home with you.

If it is a last will and testament you will need to keep the original if you want to honor his wishes. So make a copy for whomever else you want to show it to. But don't take it home with you.

That is my sense of it, too.

It would be irresponsible of me to NOT tell you to notify someone if you believe he is suicidal.

So I have said it.

Yeah that is mean.

Are you ok?

Ok.

Don't let him rattle you.

I know. Chin up. Just ignore him. At least for the moment. If you DO mention anything to him about it ever, just be cheerful tell him how thoughtful and courteous it was for him to plan ahead. :-)

If you were to show law enforcement... it would not work out quite as he intended it to.

Maybe ignore is the wrong word. Just don't be the one to initiate anything.

Don't instigate, don't call, don't text, don't respond to HIM.

I do think you should show someone though. What about your son's counselor? Do you trust her?

Good plan.

In fact I think that is the best plan.

Let a professional psychologist interpret it.

Tell her all of your concerns surrounding it as well. Including the safety of the child.

And your own, naturally!

If you are ok, I am going to go make some supper. If you want to continue, feel free to do so and I will check back shortly.

Oh the new guy. Family I saw. But there are going to be friends, too. I think some old friends. I saw old friends coming into the picture a while back. For you, too.

But he thinks it is going to upset you. But it shouldn't. But he will have a guilt trip.

In I think I remember I asked you if you were expecting someone and you said no.

The old friends are good people for you both to have around right now if they show up.

The thing that is going to make him feel like such a jerk is that it is going to take up more than one day of his time, and there may be a period of three days when you don't hear from him and then he is going to think he has hurt your feelings and he is sincerely XXXXX XXXXX to do that.

As with many things, most of the drama about it will be in his imagination. Let me know if you need anything else!

Oh I see, ok.

Well if that is the case, then you should let him know you are open to something more than bowling. :-)

I don't know that he is afraid of you meeting them. I think he gets the idea you don't want to.

lol! I see. So you are too refined and genteel to mingle with the commoners? ;-)

It's there in this... that thing that he is afraid to tell you about. That same thing... that he thinks is SUCH a big deal, but never was.

That secret he has.

That secret he has had all along. The one he is afraid will render him totally unworthy in your eyes.

That actually might very well be IT.

I mean the sort of people they are might be IT.

THEY might be the secret.

That actually makes sense.

Not that you don't know OF them, but the sort of crazy things they do when they are all together...

It could also be in some sense of protectiveness of you. On his part, I mean.

I understand. But they still come around.

But actually, I was seeing GOOD old friends.

Not a negative influence.

So maybe it is not them.

But they could very well be the secret he is keeping that I keep seeing.

He thinks it is a very big deal. It isn't. But he thinks it is.

Oh maybe they will try to take advantage of you or something. It doesn't seem like something sinister. I see something very annoying though.

I think you would be aggravated by them eventually.

Some what... asking you for things.

You need more people asking you for stuff.

Maybe I should ask you for something too just so there is good measure.

:-)

No thank you lol.

Anyway, I don't think those friends are the friends I am seeing in this.

But I see friends. But GOOD friends. Maybe his sister is bringing some?

Or ... oh more likely... they might go somewhere to see someone together. His sister and he and the kids. Someone they have not seen in ages.

Southwest. He was supposed to take a trip... I saw that a couple of weeks ago. You didn't mention it, so I don't know if he went already.

If the opportunity comes for him to take a trip southwest in direction, he should go.

That is more similar to what I see as well.

I saw New Years. Actually three days gone for him. I'm not positive if before or after.

Aw!

Poor guy.

Well anyway, there is no insecurity to be had in this, and please don't be upset if you don't hear from him for a couple of days at that time. And he will come back with his tail between his legs thinking he has done some horrible hurtful thing. You know to expect this.

:-) That is so sweet.

I am glad he appreciated it too.

lol!

Good to meet the gift quota early.

Had you spoken yet to your son's counselor about the note?

Ah ok.

How is the little man?

Is he holding up ok?

I sense he is more comfortable and getting back into more of that which is normal for him.

Ah good!

Glad to hear it.

I was worried about him before you went on your trip.

hahaha!

He wants OUT lol.

Good. Well I hope you enjoy that time too.

Quality time with him.

Same thing. There is something going on there that he thinks is beneath you. Makes him feel unworthy. Not that it is, but he feels that way.

He is protecting you, NOT ashamed of you.

Ooh. Yeah in a much bigger way, actually.

So don't push that direction. You have enough stress in your life.

There's something not quite right with that whole scene right there. Not in a bad way for you. But he is dealing with more than you want to deal with.

No you don't act like you are too good for them.

It's not a snobbish kind of beneath you thing he is feeling.

It is a he doesn't want you to get your shoes in that muck kind of thing.

It's not you acting too good. It's that you ARE too good.

Yeah lol. She always has. She is quite the dominatrix.

Anyway, you are better off without in this case.

You can meet her sometime. It will happen. And that will be 30 minutes of your life that you can't get back. :-) Sorry. Is truth.

She doesn't hate you. She hates everybody.

She won't even see you for you.

Because she just really doesn't see "people" in general except as an inconvenience even IF they are doing something for her. It is inconvenient to her that she has to endure the suffering of sharing the planet with the species.

Thank you. XXXXX see things more clearly than other times, and that is something I have seen clearly from the get go.

I think in the beginning I couldn't get a reading for you in edgewise without her overshadowing EVERY thing.

The little trip he wants to take?

Oh yes. But he needs to go.

Like you needed to go.

He needs this.

Your sweet patience and understanding of him when he goes and returns feeling so bad for hurting your feelings is going to just make him feel better about you and the two of you.

The ex went to lunch and?

ew.

She is not the one.

That is not the someone for the holiday he is wanting to be with.

That is not the thing he is so giddy with anticipation about.

Something wicked. Wicked and stupid.

Sorry. I mean that.

Yeah. I know.

It almost doesn't matter except for the fact that YOU have to watch for the consequences of this thing not working out for him.

Hey out of the office? Really? Going away maybe?

Going far enough away that if he implodes that you won't get the fallout? Maybe? We could be so lucky?

Oh yuck.

The dates are spot on for it.

What do you mean? Him going away?

I get more that he is waiting for someone and something.

I don't see him going away but that doesn't mean he won't or couldn't. But I see him waiting.

Out of the office is just me wishful thinking. Sometimes I like to be wrong.

He is setting you up for something.

I wish YOU could take another trip.

Away. With the kids.

If you just aren't there it will all blow over without you.

Deeper? This is deep lol. If he would stop feeling insecure about stuff you two wouldn't have any problems with just the two of you.

You both have issues to work though, but you can do that.

You don't really have issues WITH each other, but surrounding each other...

The relationship by itself, if we put it in a glass jar and vacuum seal it to examine is wonderful to behold. Very mature actually. It's refreshing.

This other gunk going on around you all the time makes that hard to see sometimes. His insecurities are like a little bit of dust that get on it and you have to blow that off periodically. Well yours too. :-)

Otherwise, you two are fine.

Ok. I had seen something that started with an E, but I can't remember it now. Do you remember it?

I am pretty sure I told you.

Eldritch? Yeah I think.

Nothing yet showing up like that in real life though, huh?

Ooooh I just had a though. There was a dark glass. Like a mirror. What if that is Rich Elder? Or maybe even not a name. But a rich elder. Does that make sense?

Well fiddlesticks.

Ok.

Eldritch it is then. In any way shape or form.

And a dark glass. Like a mirror or a very dirty window... smokey kind of. It's not a pretty one either.

I still see some crazy far off trip that he WANTS to take for this, like overseas even. Not that he can or will, but he sure does want to. Like an Indiana Jones adventure thing. It's weird.

It's an obsession.

He wants to see this thing. Do this thing. And he reminds me of someone I can't think who...just crazy silly GIDDY with anticipation of the thing he is waiting for.

Well yeah, but that doesn't explain the 20th and 21st if it isn't the same thing. Unless that is when he finds out he can't do it.

There's something more to it than that. I haven't figured out all the puzzle pieces yet. I'm sorry.

Either way. None of it is going to work out for him.

How far in advance would he need to make or miss reservations?

hm.

Does he know that?

I wonder if he thinks he is getting some deal for that now from somebody? You mentioned eBay. hm.

If that were the case. That would fit the timeline.

He could think he was buying some trip package and find out around that time that he got taken.

I mean I'm sorry. Not specifically eBay, necessarily, but someone or something like that. A blind seller.

But I don't think the game is it. Game doesn't feel right.

I am somehow not sure that is strong enough of a thing for him to send him over the edge like I see him going when this doesn't work out for him.

Yeah. Obsessive passion but not an event more like a THING.

If a woman is an object to him, then yes. But I do not see HER. This thing is an illusion anyway. It's not real. That is why he is going to have such a fit.

Aw he loves you. He is just afraid to admit it. He is afraid that if he says it he will jinx it.

And somewhat in his strange insecurities he thinks if he says it suddenly he won't feel it.

And so he doesn't want to say it. And there is some superstition there, something else he is afraid of... like so much he has loved in his life he has lost sort of thing, so if he doesn't say he loves you, he will never lose you.

haha. Ok. Well you take care.

You are quite welcome.

Well I am glad you are feeling better and relaxed. That is very good. The Magician (reversed) is a good omen for you for improved health and spiritual well being if you are willing to try new approaches. He wants you to explore the question "What are you afraid of?" The answer is: Resistance to change. Fear of failure. And asking for help when you need it. Your emotional well being is directly tied to your physical health, so you need to release negative emotions in order to get relief from any physical ailments.

Focus is the keyword for you, and you need to get some. :-) It is possible you could injure yourself while you are playing because of not paying attention, and being overwhelmed with tasks and to do lists, you will get overwhelmed if you do not focus on One. Thing. At. A. Time.

You could rest.

Meditate, perhaps.

miffed. Whatever for?

Why what?

Great! Congratulations!

That has to be a nice feeling.

Aw.

:-)

Sounds lovely. :-)

:-)

:-)

No. That is VERY neat.

Congratulations.

I am flabbergasted that your reading hasn't changed a bit.

Well that wasn't all bad, you know. Some was with the ex still presenting himself as the Knight of Swords reversed. Untrustworthy. Thief. Wanting to try to set you up for the blame for something.

I knew that, though. That is what I was looking for.

Yeah, I am trying to see if I can see WHAT. and WHEN. Just a moment, ok?

I know it isn't easy. I have tried that.

Anyway, this reading is so much the same ... still the same time frame, still the same indications of him just simply losing it altogether. It shows up like a tornado, that kind of chaotic crazy for him. Still the 21st-ish of December.

They are telling me to tell you not to stress over the financial stuff, though.

The whole thing with the mortgage and all that.

Everything is going to work out to your favor in the long run.

They are asking me to tell you not to do anything irresponsible though and to remind you that the lottery is not an investment plan lol.

Just stay away from him. You have to avoid him.

Just don't be near him.

Try to not have the kids around him during that time period. I know it might take some creativity because of the holidays, but try.

They are still telling me to tell you to take a another trip, too.

A mini vacation. 4 days. Not necessarily alone. You can't take the kids somewhere? I think this is related to the ex going nuts.

Try. If you can.

Good.

Try to look for something semi local that isn't going to break your budget, but just someplace where he won't be looking for you.

18th to the 21st or 19th to the 22nd.

You will probably want to be home on Christmas morning anyway, right?

I understand.

Do what you can. Go see lights. It doesn't have to be expensive. Quality time is best anyway.

Keep your eyes open though. All the time. This need to focus is something you really need to heed.

Thinking of one thing while you are trying to do something else... not good.

The thing he is waiting on you mean?

lol.

No not necessarily that he is following you. Just that you get distracted and might have an accident yourself. We don't want that to happen.

This is like stubbing your toe or ... that kind of thing...just watch what you are doing. Be in the moment.

This is a constant for you, by the way.

This shows up in all of your readings.

Focus.

What did she say about the note?

Did you show it to her?

For me it is forgetting where I JUST put my keys.

That is why I kept telling you not to call him and don't text him.

Ok well you did the responsible thing and reported it. Now you can let it go.

If she felt intervention was necessary, it is her professional obligation to act on that appropriately. If she did not, then, you need to let it go and ignore it.

That's good. Keep it that way.

Everything is so constant here. I don't very often see readings that almost don't change at all. To the positive side, new guy is actually looking more trustworthy and kind and caring lol.

Even if you are miffed at him.

I know, but he does care for you. He is a little overwhelmed with some of his own stuff right now.

Also I am just wondering if you asked him how his day went?

That question would be meaningful if you get the chance.

Ok well that is all I have for him, really. He's still in your corner.

He's a very nice guy. You are a lucky woman to have him in your life.

Insecurities and all lol.

Well that is interesting.

lol.

Except that you are nothing like his mother.

She is quite a piece of work that one lol.

Maybe you could arrange to introduce her to your ex. They seem suited to each other.

I'm so bad. I'm sorry.

No, actually.

He who? Your ex?

Or new guy?

13 is a karmic debt number, but in terms of numerology it possibly holds very little significance for you. I would need ALL of your birthdates and all of your birth names to make a run at figuring that part out. But as something that is trying very hard to get your attention, however, this might be paid some attention to.

Guess what 13 is about?

It's not an unlucky number, by the way.

13 is about FOCUS lol.

If you don't focus you will have to work extra hard to accomplish ANY task.

So 13's message to you is to keep schedules, stay organized, stay on a budget, stay on task. One. Thing. At. A. Time.

It is telling you not to take shortcuts to success, to be diligent.

This is the message of 13.

When you see any number pattern like that or see a number repeatedly, like on a clock, then on a sign or something it is trying to give you a message.

:-)

And. The other message in your cards that was a little subtle but stuck out some was that you should pay a little more attention to synchronicity. lol.

lol! how can you type when you are laughing?

Well it is that like you said, people say it could hit you upside the head. You just miss some good opportunities that could make your life easier.

synchronicity.

lol.

It is when something quite fortunate happens in front of you that meets an immediate need that you are having.

Like. You need to stop at the store for a loaf of bread, but you forgot your wallet, but you find a $10 bill on the sidewalk.

That kind of stuff.

It happens to people all the time. You probably just don't see it.

You should keep your eyes out for it. Little blessings that come randomly from the universe.

Yes, that is synchronicity.

The funny thing about it is, as you show gratitude it happens to you more.

Also it is something you CAN manifest for yourself.

I love you for that.

That is beautiful.

Synchronicity is a lot about good karma returning.

Sort of in an instant gratification kind of way.

You have to trust that Spirit and the Universe are in your corner and helping you out though. The more you believe it the more it will happen.

You could do that with the thing coming up with the ex.

Right. That is one way.

See in that situation you are their synchronicity.

Those same types of things happen to you but you over look them and don't recognize them.

So just open your eyes and watch for it. Better yet, expect it.

Expect that good things are going to happen for you, everything is going to fall into place, focus, and they certainly will.

And you can be absolutely confident in that.

I'm sorry, I am not sure I understand what you are asking. The way he was before which?

The pulling back?

He is not intentionally separating himself at this time. He is focused on work and responsibilities and Things That People Want from him. I think his mom is part of that. Probably although I try to keep her OUT of your readings, because she can overshadow every little thing.

Ah.

He should not lose the imagination. Poor guy.

Feeling a bit humorless, huh?

He's got a lot of pressure. And he really needs to take that trip I mentioned to you. Just as you needed to.

He needs a break from the norm to recharge just as you did.

He tells you you're old???

Geez. Maybe he should see a doctor then. Although men's prime is several years earlier. They do lose it sooner than we do.

Stress will do that to him too.

He has plenty.

It doesn't have to do with you. It has to do with him and where he is in his head.

If he is thinking too much about the other things going on in his life that will take it out of him.

Yeah.

If he is hearing his mother's voice in his head, he isn't going to feel like it.

It's not about you. This is something that can actually give him some depression because he is trying so hard to please the nagging little voices... and he WANTS to please you and fears he is not and so it becomes a vicious cycle for him. His insecurities of being not good enough and so forth.

It could become a self fulfilling prophecy if he doesn't snap out of it and take a break.

He needs a break. Badly.

He needs to go toward the southwest. On a trip like you took. But I think he will have his turn over the holidays as we spoke of yesterday. I hope that helps him.

This all also not physically healthy for him.

Stress of that sort never is.

Well you know certain medications will also affect that, too.

Right. But read the fine print.

Oh ok.

But it is not you, I promise.

He's not facing the truth of what is stressing him and dealing with that correctly. Hence the breakouts and lack of desire.

It's like I said above. He is being pulled in too many directions and trying to please everyone at once.

You are the one who gets neglected because you are the most patient and understanding one, but he doesn't want it to be that way, but you don't nag him, which he appreciates, and then he feels inadequate for disappointing you and he sees no end to this, and he withdraws because he feels he is only disappointing you more.

That is why the emotional distance.

So if he could just learn to say no to the others, he would be doing him self a favor. And you. But he has to be able to do that, and then stop trying to be so perfect all the time for everybody, because that is not necessary or helpful to his own goals. One of which is to be with you.

lol. Well he is lost in his own muddlement.

He needs to work his way out of the muck and stay unstuck.

He needs to get his goals in order.

You recall the message of 13. He needs to focus.

Prioritize.

Of course I meant it.

He thinks about you just like you think about him. Only almost all the time. Only his feeling is that he just can't meet the muster sometimes, and he wonders why bother because he is so overwhelmed from everything else that he doesn't see ending.

It's ok. He is right in the middle of it right now.

Oh that is just him messing with you lol.

It's meant to be a joke from him. Dry sense of humor.

lol then you should get it lol.

Also understand that how he comes across to you is how you go across to others when you do that lol.

lol.

You should lighten up lol.

Uh huh. :-)

Of course not.

He is too dedicated and ... well... TRYING to be focused....

on the task at hand.

Whatever that may be.

Or trying to silence the one who nags him the loudest.

He should try that looking out for synchronicity as well.

13 has a message for all of you. Apparently your children as well, from what you told me.

And today is the 13th.

Ohmygosh. You feed them, too???

;-)

Good plan.

At least for the moment.

You rest, take care, and enjoy your evening.

lol

You're welcome! Good night!

namaste

Please clarify which son? The elder or the younger? It is important that I know when I do a reading. I will be back when I see your notification. Hang in there. xoxo.

Glad I asked. Give me a few minutes and I'll let you know what I see going on with him.

Are you ok?

With you eldest son, the root of his discontent seems to be about money and power. He is too young to quite yet wield it as he would like to, but he seems to have inherited a craving.

*your. Sorry.

He also has your fear of success and a fear of failure.

Much of this is insecurities of his age. He sort of feels like stepping into adulthood is like stepping into an abyss. He is not sure what awaits him or who will catch him if he falls, if anyone will.

Poor kid. My heart aches for him right now.

It really wasn't about his dad, though, I don't think. Not really.

Not really, dear. He may be accepting bribes, however.

He has the same lust and obsession with money and power.

Which your son does not want to see happen...every kid secretly hopes their parents will get back together and life will be like normal.

Even the near adult ones.

A lot of this is the sentiment of the holidays, and even though you aren't traditional, it is all around and he longs for that.

Your eldest son.

Please explain to me what you meant by the secret vacation? I don't understand. Sorry my brain is lagging this evening.

The ex you mean?

No he isn't. I was wishing he would. He is waiting for something. That other trip for the obsession he wants to follow, that he wants to take is a ways off yet, and would be an extended absence if it occurs. But not soon. Not this month.

I'm not sure it ever will, but that is something he is planning. Not cloak and dagger, just nothing confirmed or firmly planned.

Two separate topics, really. The thing this month and the other thing.

I was wishful thinking that he would go away for that time, but I don't see it happening. Whatever he is planning, he is waiting for something or someone.

Right. Two separate things.

Right, I understand. He is taking time off from work, but that doesn't mean he is going anywhere.

Who said don't tell anyone?

Oh ick. Maybe he wants your son to think he is going away.

If he told him not to tell anyone, that would be because so many people know it isn't true. That is evil of him to put your son in the spot like that.

That is twisted.

He is not going anywhere.

That poor kid.

He just wants your son to think he is going to be gone.

Until he gets duped.

Right.

Well, if she exists and if she shows up, which I think neither is ... she has her own lessons to learn or to ... possibly to teach.

Oh could be, but she is still not materializing as anything real t me.

I'm sure it does.

Have to do with next week.

It's a shame that he is twisting the boy's mind.

A bribe was surely given to get him to say what your ex wanted him to say.

And he wants to be loyal to both of you, in his heart of hearts.

So he is majorly conflicted.

Hence the outburst.

The boy does not know how to process this conflict.

On the part of the ex, yes. At the expense of your son's emotional health. Shameful.

I am wondering if you ever mentioned this stuff to the attorney you spoke to.

The way this guy plays everybody and is tearing those kids up.

You need to.

I know. But you need to tell the attorney.

If this is the attorney that is handling your divorce.

Get that attorney and counselor talking to each other.

It was a bribe.

Right. Not quite adult but definitely no longer a child.

At some point he has to learn to face the consequences of his choices. Just be there to lovingly support him when it falls apart again.

Just reassure him that no matter what, you are his mom and love him no matter what. Look him in the eye and tell him.

Don't try to make his choices for him or even warn him anymore.

If you do, that will just push him further the other direction. They SO love to resist pressure at that age. If there is no pressure from you, that will be helpful in the long run.

I know it is so hard to do, but bite your tongue when you are tempted to do it.

Yep.

There ya go.

It begins.

I think your ex thinks she is real, but I don't think she is real. Like I said. I get the strong suspicion that just as he is trying to set you up for something, someone else is in the process of setting him up for something.

Maybe it is your guardian angel decided to play hard ball with him lol.

Giving him some of his own medicine.

There is a strong sense of karma paybacks heading directly for him.

If you could excuse me? I forgot! Oh my gosh... sweetie, I have to run an errand. I wasn't watching the time.

I have to run. I'll check for you later, ok?

That does sound yucky. Thank you for bringing me your concern, although for most purposes I would caution you not to lend too much credibility to horoscopes that are not based on YOUR time and place of birth. Your reading on this exact situation is, perhaps surprisingly, exceedingly pleasant, in regards XXXXX XXXXX Guy. The Two of Cups and the Page of Wands in regards XXXXX XXXXX guy... which is just about the very best one could hope to see in response to such a question. :-) BUT... yes... here he is. The ex and his depraved love of chaos as the King of Wands reversed and the Emperor reversed... both...icky indeed. Charismatic, intimidating, appearing and disappearing with suddenness and leaving upheaval in his wake... fits of rage... cold calculation. YOUR response needs to be to courageously stand up for your beliefs in the face of any adversity that might present itself.

Not really a change, dear. Just the ebb and flow of the natural energy of your relationship. It has good days and not so good days and then better days again. But if you are looking for his support and compassion, today is a better day to seek it.

Your ex isn't "hurt" that you won't talk to him. He is "hurt" because whatever havoc he wants to wreak on your life isn't panning out so well for him.

His "hurt" face is phony.

You just keep on the way you have been and not acknowledging that, and not taking his bait, and you will get through whatever he has up his sleeve.

The reason he is so difficult to read is because there is so much intentional deception going on there.

Intentional and concentrated.

His thoughts and intentions are like a tangled jungle of deceit and betrayal.

Right, we are having a thunderstorm here, so I might lose mine as well.

I didn't see him actually going anywhere the last time we looked at that. Telling the story, yes, but actually traveling, no. I will look again.

Yes. I see that this is part of him plotting to give you false security in a chance to rest from him. This is quite elaborate planning.

k.

lol.

Yes you did.

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Who?

ok :)

Go look under the the underside of the table.

Like at the bottom of it.

Is that floor carpet or hard floor? Rug? What?

Look underneath the tabletop itself, to see if something is written there or has been taped there. Or a surveillance device. Like a listening device.

Look carefully.

Someone is drawing your attention to that spot for a reason.

If you don't find it under the table, look around FROM that spot and see what you can see.

examine everything you can.

Bugs can be tiny. Like buttons.

They can also be contained in items such as a pen.

So anything you find that looks out of place, anything at all.... and it might be small. Check everything.

k

Also you said he was at the neighbors. Try checking in that direction, even outside the house for anything.

I think he left something over there for the boys though. As part of his pretense of going away.

And maybe to start a rumor about you.

Oh drop some little story about you ... just to make you look bad.

Well check that direction for any kind of surveillance item too.

Or something. Anything.

I don't know what is wrong with him. I could speculate, but I am not qualified to say.

I have to go run my 5:30 errand in a few minutes. Go look under that table. Remember you might be looking for something very tiny.

No I still do not seeing him taking a long trip. He might even purchase airline tickets though, because he is really thinking this out. But I don't see him actually going.

I don't know how far he will carry this ruse. Or why he feels it is necessary.

I didn't see that happening either, no, because you are smart and forewarned and not going to be in his way.

This is why the listening device makes sense. He might be wanting to know where you will be what your plans are.

So be careful what you say and where.

And to whom.

You can make white noises like fans running and water running and have tv on and such that make it more difficult for him to hear what is spoken.

You could be looking for a pen or a watch or something really small like a button.

Basically you are looking for something unfamiliar to you as something that belongs in the house or to you.

His office? I don't think so. I didn't see that at all. I think he is only going to damage himself.

I do have to run now though.

Keep me posted. Use a fine tooth comb to look.

See ya soon.