For the sake of brevity, I'd like to shorten your "name" to hfj, unless you have a real first name. Mine is John and you are free to use it from here on.
Theology is simply "the study of God". As for disputing the writings of Paul, that has been done in verious forms for 2000 years and only for the purpose of discrediting Christianity.
You stated that your main concern is what God thinks of you. You can study all the texts, essays and writings you want about Pauline issues, and NONE will help you know what God thinks of you!
You need to understand something when you study the bible. And by saying this, I have come under much criticism in the JustAnswer arena. As there are many different available translations of the Holy Bible, it is still the most authoritative source on the subject of personal theology which is what we are discussing. I prefer the New American Standard to the King James version, because it is easier to read. For accuracy of text, I prefer the Geneva Bible that was compiled before the King James version and is hard to fine. A web site called Americanvision.com has a tremendous selection of resources.
As for what God thinks of you, I am attaching my personal statement of faith, then I will wait for your response.
STATEMENT OF FAITH
John & XXXXX XXXXX - Chaplain
We Believe In...
...The Holy Scriptures as originally given by God, divinely inspired, infallible, entirely trustworthy and the only supreme authority in all matters of faith and conduct, and;
...One God, eternally existent in three persons, Father, Son and Holy Spirit, and;
...Our Lord Jesus Christ, God manifest in the flesh, His virgin birth, His sinless life, His divine miracles, His physical/bodily resurrection, His ascension, His sole position as mediator between God and man, His personal/physical return to redeem His Church in power and glory, and;
...The salvation of lost and sinful man through the shed blood of Jesus Christ and regeneration by the Holy Spirit by faith and apart from works, and;
...The Holy Spirit, by whose indwelling at the time of salvation gives the believer the power to live a holy life to witness and work for our Lord Jesus Christ, and;
...The unity in the Spirit of all true believers, the Church which is the true Body of Christ, and;
...the resurrection of both the believer and the lost; the believer to eternal life and the lost to eternal death.
We Also Believe that...
...the only criteria by which we call ourselves Christians is our relationship to the One True and Living God, who is the Lord Jesus Christ and the evidence of that relationship as seen in a genuine change in our lives as a result of the regenerative work of the Holy Spirit that allows us to demonstrate the Fruit of the Spirit which is unconditional love manifested by Joy, Peace, Patience, Gentleness, Goodness, Faith, Meekness and Temperance.