Last night, I was thinking about a guy that I wanted to date…

Last night, I was thinking about a guy that I wanted to date and have since ruined my chances with. It has been a month since we spoke and I was wanting to speak with him again, do I turned to the Tarot asking if it was worth it to even try. I got "the moon" and decided to sleep on my decision. I got my answer in my dream, but I am a bit confused by the symbols I got. Just a brief back history, he works at a gas station and one night I watched him sell winning scratch off tickets, not large amounts but double the lady's money. Also, the reason he stopped talking to me is because I was upset one day and requested a hug. He asked what was wrong. This was all via text. Well, I was a little too honest because the reason was I had just been contacted by a former lover who was playing, mind games with me. I used the woord affair, because I did have a relationship with a married man. It was a mistake. He didn't say a word to me after that...nothing. So, I tried to defend my case, still silence. So, yes, I'm the idiot here. So, in the dream:

He gives me (i didn't buy it) a half scratched off scratcher. We didn't speak with each other. I take the scratch off home and start scratching the rest. It is a large scratcher, mostly red, and $8. I keep scratching off winning items. The biggest box being worth over $20,000. I tell myself, I can't keep this, I have to call Justin (the guy above). Before I do that, I notice my dogs are gone, so I go outside calling their names. Some random stranger says, they are in your house. I scream back, no they aren't. I find them in another building and realize I have no leashes, but then one appears. After a little yelling I carry the little one and walk the other home. then I want to call Justin, but don't want to talk outside because it is windy. I call him from the bathroom. He answers before the phone rings and I'm flustered and tell him he answered too quickly, I wasn't ready. He says he is out with friends what do I want. I tell him the card he gave me is worth over $20,000 he should have it. He doesn't act surprised just asks what I really want from him and why would I have an affair. I say (and the following I had thought of prior to sleeping): I didn't intentionally get involved with a married man, but I also believe we choose our paths before birth with the intentions of learning lessons. That relationship helped me through my divorce. I know it was wrong, but I have learned from it. I like you. There was a pause and he said I have to have you now, you are my destiny. So I go to his house and we make out and get naked but never quite make it to sex because I notice a picture of him with a huge, python and in an attempt to make a joke, I say, I like your snake. Then ask if he still has it. He gets out of the bed and puts a small bowl with worm sized snakes on the bed. Ge says she will come out for her babies. I freak out a little saying I don't want to see her. She does come out and she is large. Then I see another one and say, you have 2? Yes, he is the male. Then the dream pretty much end.