Hi welcome back. I understand how painful this is for you, but by you reaching out, it indicates to me that part of you does not want to give up on them. Rather than a complete cut off, it may be better that you come to a pace of acceptance for where the relationships are and the dynamic of them. So yes it may always be you reaching out and taking what you can get. Not a great space at all, but I am not hearing that giving up and walking away from them is truly what you want.
I don't think the nagging helps you or the relationship. I would just be present with them in the relationship for how it is.
Take things day by day. I am here again if you need. Please click the rating stars and thanks so much.