Good morning and thank you so much for your message. I realize it's difficult to reach out. Please know I honor your courage.
My name is ***** ***** I am a psychotherapist in the Metro Boston area of the United States.
Oh sweet soul, I understand why you are conflicted and sad...the two of you have so much history and no doubt, there is much love between the two of you. It sounds like Colin is fearful of going all in at this point as he fears things quickly returning to how they once where. He may need more time to see that the positive changes you have made will truly stick for the long-term.
I'm unsure as to why he is lying but imagine this is all wrapped up in his fear of things moving back to the place they once were. I'm sad that he can't just verbalize this to you. Do you think he is possibly seeing another person as well?
I imagine his lying is also devastating and probably makes you question what the future will hold as well. Have you confronted him about his lying? If so, did he own up to it?
Sorry for all of the questions. I want to ensure I fully understand everything going on so I can provide a thorough answer.
Looking forward to hearing from you.