Good morning, Kelly, and thank you so much for your message. I realize it's difficult to reach out. Please know I honor your courage.
My name is ***** ***** I am a psychotherapist in the Metro Boston area.
Please be gentle with yourself, sweet friend, as it sounds like there is some validity to your feelings. Yes, he has consistently come home every night now but it sounds like this wasn't always the case. You mentioned he left in the past and I imagine this is your greatest fear...that he will leave you once again. Your feelings of abandonment have been triggered and you respond from a place of anxiety.
Can you please explain a littler bit more about your history with him so I can better understand your situation? I will then be able to give you a more thorough response.... How long ago did he leave? How long did he leave for? Obviously the two of you found your way back to each other....which is wonderful but how long has it been?