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My name is ***** ***** I am a psychotherapist in the Metro Boston area of the United States.
Ohhhhh dear, it sounds like you have been through so much the last year....truly a nightmare. It sounds like one loss after another and obviously the loss of this relationship is compounding things further.
I imagine being in a relationship during all of this was beyond difficult and I didn't get the sense he offered a lot of support during this difficult time for you? Am I correct in assuming this? I also feel it's horribly unfair to accuse you of not being committed to the relationship when you had to return hone. I imagine this decision was a financial one--simply not a lack of commitment to the relationship on your part.
I understand you want to make things right with this man and return to a relationship but sadly it seems that there are levels of issues here that I fear may be very difficult to sort through. We simply cannot make a person love and commit to us and I fear yet another loss is part of what is making you hold on so tightly.
I imagine you could write him a letter....explaining the sadness you have, apologizing for where you went wrong and see if he would be willing to engage in conversation again. I believe you need to take this approach in very small steps for fear of chasing him away. After sending the letter, it puts things in his court. I would wait to see if he reaches out. If not, I think you sadly need to walk away. I know this is not what you want to hear, sweet soul, but we all deserve to be loved and loved deeply. True love does not disappear in a matter of weeks.
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