Hello. My name is Michael. I will be helping you with your question today.
You must concentrate on what makes you happy. And you must not constantly be looking for those things in him. Realistically, that may not be where they are. Is your mind in a place where you can explore other options - I mean options other than reconciliation? Any other options you have ARE possible outcomes, so I would give them some attention. When you do, most everything else falls into place.