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I am sorry to know this has become this overwhelming for you.
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I feel like he needs to know that i
Could you please tell me if you were able to fully confront him at all about this at all, or it was not possible since you just found out later on when your lived were already apart
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later only just found out 1 Year after separation
Have you ever discussed with your therapist/psychologist about the soundess of sending him a letter confronting him about it?
i have no contact with him that was the advice of the pyschologist she said to cut him off
I can see your dilemma since on one hand your lives are now totally separated but you still keep obsessed about him because of the wounding and pain he caused to you for so much abuse and manipulation.
there is so many things for me that have not been said & some of that was because i did not even understand it all myself at the time
I do always suggest people to do the same, that is the consistent and healthy approach, but my point was about you giving yourself the chance to truly vent what you have felt leading to this overwhelming anxiety turning into an obsession. I think you have not had enough psychotherapeutic support to truly vent and process these painful feelings, for you to really be able to move on with your life, otherwsie you would not find yourself in this position.
Most times dates like this could easily trigger pain repressed from previous wounding that has not been truly healed, which would be a normal reaction, because of how traumatic it's been in your life, but it also shows your need to deeper work on rehabilitating from it
i feel there is so much irony in this situation right now he has gone back to the women he divorced to marry me. sec
What has been your contingency plan developed with your therapist to implement when facing these tough times like the one year anniversary of your separation?
I dont have one ... look i felt my therapist li,ed to
It is shocking and traumatic, and it's been this overwhelming for you because of how much you attached to him and underwent so much abuse, besides of the way he left
sorry liked to talk more then me
Please tell me more about it
You mean she used to take much of your therapy sessions time talking to you rather than allowing you to vent, process and actually work on how to heal from it?
I left him because he was tormenting & Persucting me about imaginary affairs and i could not take it anymore
Yes she spoke alot about her life experiences
Right, he was systematically abusing you to the point of pushing you away and risking your own sanity
Then you feel she talked too much but did not give you time, nor set the emotional container for you to vent and process your trauma and pain, right?
she talked about learning techniques for minfull
Techniques for mindfullness etc and other ways of improving selft esteem and assertiveness etc
Mid she actually modeled these techniques and supportred you practicing them during sessions, and monitored your work between sessions to make sure you were actually developing those skills and benefiting from them, and that they were relieving your pain?
I did not get to work through how it was living with an alcoholic, walking on egg shells how you would have anxiety before you got home hot knowing what you were going to confront.How I was ho linger sexually attracted to him because if the repulsion of having sex with a drunk.
Then there was not much therapeutic work done at all during those months, but it was much more like instruction or classes on how to promote your self-esteem and around self-development but not therapy
i feel that the therapist talked to me about the techniques and somethings I did get but some I do not think so
this would explain why you still feel this overwhelmed and shocked by what happened
I really think so now looking back I took my daugter with me one time and she said mum she talks alot about herself
Then I do strongly believe, based on your story, that you need to work on your therapeutic process with sound professional support. since it is obvious you are having a tough time because of all these past experiences still deeply affecting your mood, mind and functioning in the present.
It sounds like she was venting herself rather than allowing and supporting you to do it
This is unacceptable, but I have to say that it is not that uncommon, since there are many people, with good and bad intentions working in the mental health field, who could not only not help but undermine clients' mental health even more when not doing ethical and competent work.
I do not want to feel like this anymore... I have a mother whom is unwell in another country to whom I am close I want to move forwards not backwards
For your daughter to have perceived that, it's obvious it was a core issue, and your experience shows it undermined the therapeutic work and benefits you were supposed to get
Then please do not delay getting competent and ethical "therapeutic" support. We all can read and learn from books and classes a bout mindfulness, relaxation and many other wonderful and necessary techniques, but therapy is much more than getting information or knowledge, it is about therapeutic experiences during sessions and about those happening between them, oriented, monitored and supported by the therapist. But in your care she appears to have limited it to information, instruction and talking and venting lot about her personal life and issues.
ok i want to be able to cope ... i have alot of bad feeling towards my ex husband still unresolved things which to me has no accountability for. This is how evil he is he told me on parting that he had sex with my daughter and she as so much better then me and not exactly in that language
OMG this is overwhelmingly shocking, how could a person say that!
I will go back to my doctor and see what I can get help for
Do you know if this was true, is he did actually did it, how old was your daughter and what did she say?
Please, look for a competent, ethical, and experienced psyhcotherapist, and do not waste your time, money or health if he/she happens not to be good professionals, immediately look for a better one.
Your therapist should be able to listen to you, and constantly ask you to know how comfortable, well and supported you feel, hoe well therapy is or not working for you, inside and changing your life through concrete improvements. If a therapist does not do this, and supports you to make this something real, then such is not a good therapist at all.
it was not true my daughter is 30 & she disliked him intensely it did not happen he was lashing out because I was leaving him
Remember this and remind yourself that this is about your health, happiness and well-being, and that you cannot afford undermining them at all because of a bad professional.
He is truly a very distorted and abusive person, his addictions and other mental and personality disorders are at the core of it.
Please look for a good therapist and if possible for a support group if group psychotherapy is not available, and commit to them until you feel strong and confident about yourself and life.
he also said to me I better be careful whom I get with in the future because they will be more interested in my daughter then me I said I am not interested in being with anyone ... he said oh yes you will
You did exposed too much to this person's abuse, it is shocking to hear you describing what he was able to say, no doubt that any further contact with him would only expose you to further abuse and wounding.
You do not need nor deserve any of that for sure, and that's why good psychotherapy is so important.
I realise this which is why I write letters to the universe .. Rafael I will try and get more help I realise it takes time to heal but the recent news has just rocked me back to when I just left him. I need to deal with it... I try to vent but within reason.
is it payback is that why I want to get back him and let him know how wrong he has been?
I fully support you, please take consistent action and feel free to contact me for any further support, and if you want to try online counseling with mu support, just let me know since I am also willing to support you that way. What matters now is for you to work on your healing with necessary support.
No, it would just deepen the abuse and wounding, taking your own power away from you, the one you need to heal and rebuild your life, the way you need and deserve.
Anything your mind could tell you about the possibility-need to expose to him to talk to him and let him know how you feel or think, would be self-sabotage and absolutely destructive, and I do not doubt he wil take advantage of it to abuse you even more!
I did send my ex a sms message which was polite and civil asking him to get on and organise the divorce as I will be leaving the country soon. I found this gave me some relief as it was going around and around in my mine what to do about it.
I have not been able to seek medical support as my work is so busy right now due to Christmas approaching I am a retail store manager so I have decided to talk with you when I feel I need help.