Hello, I am Rafael. Thanks for asking your question - I'm here to support you. (Information posted here is not private or confidential but public).
I am very sorry to know about this overwhelmingly sad and painful situation.
Could you please tell me how do you feel now that you know about this overwhelming reality, once it goes against everything you though and felt about this person and your relationship?
I was very shocked and I don't really know what to do now
I am still in shock, I don't know what to think. We were very excited planning our honeymoon
I was determined to leave him but then I'd change my mind
I think that's because a little part of me still wants to believe that he's still the nice person I thought he was. I am not sure if I am deluding myself