Thank you for your email. I kind of felt the same too.. but what scares me is that he hit the bottom and he ran out of patience with me. He said we would fight again in the future because of my persistent character and drinking problem. I did tell him afterwards I am going to change for myself. He cried a bit too, it was dark but I could see. What blew him off was that.. this Monday, I was asking him where he was/went Saturday night. He then told me what he did and told me to not contact him again. I spoke to his brother and few friends, and they think he's just irritated and I have to give him sometime, and he didn't really mean it. I will be happy with him, I feel like I took him for granted in some ways. When I heard he was planning a " guys' trip to NYC" next month, I was surprised- I thought he would be sad too, but he's keeping himself insanely busy with his work and this?? Does it look like he's trying to forget or to heal? I really appreciate your honest answer. Meanwhile, I am working out and going to church everyday to improve myself for myself :)
So since our last conversation, I have been sending few txt msgs and he has been somewhat replying. My mom knowing what's going on, she invited him over for dinner past saturday. There was check he had to get from my house too ( he was fixing my parents' bathroom prior to breakup as a gift for my parents, but hasn't finished it yet. But he's really responsible and does everything he promises) He said he would come, but at the last minute, he said he had an emergency work ( he actually did) said he couldn't make it.My mom said it's ok, she will wait... he called back around 930PM saying he was still working and he said he would come on Sunday ( yesterday).
I called him yesterday morning and asked him if he didn't come because of me. He said no, he actually had work and he's already on his way work for that day... I said ok, I won't be at home, so make yourself comfortable and come... he said ok. He called me around 6:50pm asking where I was, I said I was at church. He said I should come because it's weird for him to be there by himself. So I went but I couldn't see his eyes directly. He had conversations with my parents and laughed acting normal. He was tired so left early with my mom's leftover food and a present. I followed him outside and asked if he read my txt sent that morning ( I really want to talk about it, not only specifically about the breakup.. I know you are busy, so contact me in 2-3 weeks.) he said he didn't read it, but I know he did cuz I got the read receipt. so I just followed him to the car and asked if he was still mad. He said he's not mad, he doesn't feel a thing. He kept ignoringme, he acted like he wasn't there. he was so cold. he said I'm gonna go. I was like do you want to talk about it later? He said are you being persistent again?? I was like no.... so I backed off. He said " I'll contact later". then left.
I've been keeping myself busy, working out and church. At this point, what do you think? Does it have a chance? What should I do? I do not want to drag it longer than it has to be though. I want to be with him, but if he's that cold, what should I do?