Well, Hello Debra I
I'm sure you do remember me.
I wrote to you about getting my belongings back from my ex.
And at this point, I don't know if were together or not.
I had decided to call him a couple nights ago. We talked a bit, I told him I missed him and that I was sorry.
The problem is, he never wants to talk. We never find the time.
It seems as if we forget what even happened.
We spent the night together last night. And I think having time apart is best.
I'm very sure he loves me. I just feel like something is missing. Something feels off. Maybe it's because i'm insecure at times. I just don't know.
So, what can I do to break this feeling? What would you do?
The last time I told him how I felt, he walked out on me. I didn't like what he said to me.
I guess it's all about how and when I tell him.
Yes. It is. I also feel the need to take time away from each other as well.. is there something wrong with that? Sometimes I want to be away from him no matter how much I miss him. It gives me perspective. I want him to be with friends. I want him to do things without me. Because I need to know who I am without him but I also want to feel whole when i'm with him.
I'm still trying to figure out how to get back to that.
The only person who knows of me and he seeing each other again is my mother and a coworker but other than that.. everyone hates him. He doesn't blame them.
He's going fishing with a married friend from work. Tomorrow he and a friend are going fishing and hiking. I always feel like I have anxiety when he's away and thats why I want him to do things with friends so I can break that feeling of insecurity.
I always worry he's speaking to that girl.
But I remember that I need to trust him.
I'd like to think he's a good enough man to let me go if he ever had doubts (not that he won't.)
I will but I think I might be super busy to check in with him. I think he likes that about me. The fact that I have a life.
I will. Start new. Hopefully we can move past this. It
it's just my insecurities come over me and I act on impulse.
I need to go one step at a time.
A couple more questions.
What should I do the next time I feel insecure?
And how should I ask whether or not were in a relationship? I mean he calls me babe, baby, brought me around his friends. He still has my belongings.
And, lastly... how should I ask if were in a relationship... if i should.
We didn't agree to get back together. but its like it hasn't changed.
I think I wanna wait on that... I don't wanna overwhelm him.
Because to be honest, I don't know what he's thinking.. I'm not sure if he's just thinking that were just friends or if were giving this another try.
Does that make sense? I don't think ever formally agreed to give a relationship another chance.
For now, I think i'll just let things play out. Give him his time with his friends and i'll do my own thing. Whatever happens, happens.. Good attitude to have? I hope. I'm tired of stressing
Okay, okay.. I will do this.
Thanks so much, Deb!