Hello, I am Rafael. Thanks for asking your question - I'm here to support you. (Information posted here is not private or confidential but public).
I am sorry to know about this frustrating and sad situation.
I think you need to be %100 truthful with yourself about what your really want and are willing to afford in this relationship, then be totally honest towards her, and from there take consistent action, ot take good care of yourself and also to allow her to do the same.