Thanks for your reply,
but I snap easily with her, as she use a very insulting language with me
which I dont belive any one would stand , we have been married a year now,and it is just getting worse and worse.
she acts like she is a single, she wants to take all decisions by herself considering it is affecting her own life.
If I asked anything about her job, she would go crazy and accuse me to interfere in her job and then start the list of insults and challenging attitude
I can control myself for an extent but not to keep hearing the same insults in every conversation
It seems like we are in a war zone, everything can cause an explosion
just to be fair now she is facing some health problems (hormones issue)
, but the thing is she was like this before that and getting worse.
everything is out life is being affected.
she speaks to me like I am a her colleague or a stranger she just met
she doesnt speak to me and show her tenderness.
I feel sometimes when I talk to her like I am talking to one of my male friends
we were about to get divorce many times, and she always pushed me to reach the divorce point, then she starts to cry and beg me not to leave her
and she would promise to stop and that she does not know why she acts like this and push me to my limits while she knows she can get us divorced
but at that point she feels that she has to defend her self by being stubborn and escalating things more and more
so you think she has some kind of disorder personality?
I just had a phone call with her, and she escalated things and asked for some time to think it all over, this is all because I just asked her about something related to her job which she asked me in the first place about it ?
I am really confused
ok one more things
in many of our fights , when i reach that we have to divorce, she used to ask me if I wil get married again, and when i say yes, she used to say she will kill us both ,and she said this also when we are calm and discussing our fights in order to solve them
and many times she said she would jump off the window if i divorced her
and I really dont know if she mean this as well
but she can go crazy in a way makes me scared and feel she can harm her self
and she would admit her anger that she can not cntrol her self and does not know why she is doing this
I keep thinking I may also doing something to her that get her so angry , but I can not find anything I do that is so extreme with her
and what I hate now, that I reach a point that she is getting the worse out of me
I dont want to get physically aggressive with her, because this is not me
but I feel sometimes that I wanna punch her in the face to stop her talking
(which i never done) but I am so afraid to reach that one day
and It will kill me as I never been aggressive with any woman in my life before
i dont know if this could add to give you the full picture
but we both come from different back ground
she is european and I am arab, we have the same religion as she converted to islam before i met her in 2 years
she was married twice before me
andn with her second husband she used to tell me that he was aggressive to her at the end and she told me she used to curse him and use a very bad language with him
and after we got married , she start cursing me and using a bad language with me
and honeslty I used to trust her, but now i feel she is hiding things and she didnt tell me the truth about her life and her past
she denies many things we agreed on before marriage and she claims that she never agreed on them
I dont know what to do ?she keeps telling me that I am the love of her life and she been married twice but was not for love, but now after she met me she wont let me go ,but all her actions are showing me the opposite and now I start questioning everything told me about her ex's