I have talk to todd about us to whether he choose me or baby mother the one who live with todd (Maryln). He still avoid my text message. He did asking me vacation with him next month before. I know he will be angry all this situation choose between maryln or me. He may still love me it hard to let go and for me too let him go. I am trying right now I cry everyday and depression. I miss everything we had together. It to hard let is go hopefully it goes well that I don't talk todd at all. There is one thing that last july he brought my car and he told me for his oldest daughter thing is he had not paid me yet. I told todd once you get my money please mail to me and don't come to my house never want see you. I noticed few time he drives daughter car. He told it good for his daughter use car go to work and play soccer. And now he drives his daughter car make me wonder that maryln using todd car go to work make me he set me up is daughter really using the car or not only todd only drives. It makes me angry that he not telling me anything. between maryln and todd. How am I going through this I did told todd why he drive daughter car did not reply. I want to give up everything but how am I going to this it hard. Try forget his name not that easy. and last week just found out he on holiday as he told me that he take two day off as not holiday or vacation and he was off 7 days and he also told me that he did not have money to paid our vacation for us. I check todd every move every thing is lie. sometime I sleep good and some not get dreams of todd and I crys. I don't know what to do even I know leave todd for good. I do love todd it tear me apart.