this sounds good. Yeah we have been together for 5 years and it has been rocky....we finally are ln a place were we are learning to be open and communicate. you are right communication is important. I have fear of rejection. real bad.
makes sense, for me its hard to tell the difference between what im doing that I want to do and respecting his time and space
its like for example- hes working at the computer. I want to grab him sit on his lap and kiss him. If I try he gets annoyed becuase he is working so I feel rejected.
Would you say being open about our boundries? Like if he says he doesnt want to be disturbed while working then I need to respect that but afterwards do what I want? It sounds so socially awkward but I feel like that because I am so fearful .......
an example- last weekend we went through a cycle were we were trying to discuss stuff, then it turned to a break up then make up. I was massaging him I put a blind fold on him. He said to me What does your body want, pretend im not me, im just a body you do what you want. Its safe. It was 2 hours long of pure extasy. It was amazing. I cant describe what is going on. I guess maybe its the doing what I want to do