Ok, you have made me feel much better about all of this. I understand that I need to back off and that's why I reached out. Along those lines, both us work in medicine. My full time job is 80 miles away from our home. I usually work anywhere from 5-6 days straight without seeing my family. I think that makes it much harder especially when I am trying to rebuild our bond together. Then my mind gets all of these crazy ideas in it, and I know it shouldn't but I swear I think about the issues that we have had at least once/day. And yes, my wife has done a great job with helping me recover from this. In my previous message when I stated that I wasn't the best husband for the last 2 years I should have specified on what I had meant. Basically I have not been there for her emotionally or physically. I think I had pushed her away a bit. I didn't want to be touched, I would get snappy with her when she would talk to me or basically ignore her..I now know that I shouldn't have done any of those things. I've asked her about this and she states that she felt that I was distant during that time and she was trying to adjust to how I had become. Now I am the one who wants to spend every minute together and show my emotions and be touched. She now on the other hand is still in the adjustment mode and states that it is now going to take time for her to get back to the way she was before I basically had blocked her out. I just wished I would have realized what I had before it got to this point.