wow, You are so kind and empathetic
I could have just re-read my post and gotten on wiki for a definition if I was hoping for that answer. Maybe you did your best, XXXXX XXXXX know. Maybe I am sensitive because I have been hiding this for so long coming on here was huge to me and admitting I needed help was a really big deal for me and maybe I sound stupid but I don't care. I needed to hear it from someone else that it was not my fault and I CAN change it. Since reading your answer I got on google and found out for myself that there are shelters and 24/hr hotlines there for me. I am no "expert" but I would have thought that would have been something to mention to a person in my situation. I realize how stupid you must think I am that I am saying, " He does all these horrible things and I am so scared but he doesn't leave marks so it's safe, right?" I have dealt with this situation changing very slowly and gradually for 10 years and it's easy to except things as normal when you get used to them. It doesn't help that I have been told by the man I love and take care of that I am always wrong, crazy, screwed up, and I don't deserve to care for my children because I was an alcoholic for so long. Maybe if you think about what I have really been through you will see how I have been beaten down and lied to for so long it's hard to tell what's real and that you could have taken the time think my question over instead of just spitting out common facts. Not that you are what happens to me or my children I suspect, you are worried about the bad review so I tell you what, I will give you a good review because even through your ignorance of me I wouldn't want you to suffer because I was upset. Please have an outstanding day and keep up the awesome job of providing us nobody's with your expertise, thank you for your time.
I did not realise