I am pretty sure it's over. The only thing I have heard from him since I was there Wed night was a text on Fri night (He sent it at 710pm while he knew I was working...I got it at 11pm when I got off) It read..other night was amazing...just been busy.haven't forgotten:-).
I waited until 1230am and text him back.."yeah..don't worry about it."
haven't heard from him at all since. I feel like that text seemed like he was just throwing me a bone...but for what?? He may just have wanted to sleep with me one final time before letting me go..and he didn't want to seem like a complete jerk by ending it right after so he said he needed a week and he would have the answer..I feel like I am being played right now..which I would have never expected from him. If he feels this confused about what he wants than perhaps I should remove myself as an option and we can both just move on.
I feel like I am 18 instead of 38 with not being able to let go of this man.
As I was trying to form the words I wanted to say to him to just be done with it..he called me..not text but actually called. He said he just wanted to say Happy Memorial Day to me and that something he saw reminded him of me again. For the next hr we talked about a lot of things. I asked him how things were going with Anna and he said they are the same..just talking. He told me that she informed him yesterday that her ex bf texted her and she went back and forth with him about when he was going to give her the $500 and the phone he owed her. Tim said it shouldn't matter why he texted if she was serious about getting him out of her life she should have changed her # XXXXX blocked his #.
Anyway, Tim told me that he is seeing more and more that it is difficult getting past her previous cheating. and he is losing respect of his 15 yr old daughter who will not accept him getting back together with her.
He also snuck a statement in our conversation saying.."so what if I did decide to tell Anna in the next few days that we are should only be friends and there is nothing more? I already screwed things up with you at this point. Why would you take me back"? I said " I would say, I love you enough to understand why you needed to try to see if that situation would work.. but I would need to know you were choosing me because you wanted to not because you lost that option." Then he went on and on saying how he knows how much he would have to prove to me and do to make me feel like I was the one he wanted.
Having said all that he threw in how confused he still is and how he thinks she is probably really done with her ex this time.
So, then his 3 yr old woke up from her nap and he had to go. He said he would call me later but I doubt that will happen. I decided to text him about 15 mins after we ended our conversation and said..would it be too much to ask if we can get together once more before it's too late?...his response was. yes..this week. I said tonight, tues or wed night? he said I will let you know..I said..ok but please don't wait until the last minute...no response since.
I just have no idea what to make of all this confusion. Am I being a fool letting him have his cake and eat it too, so to speak? Will he ever really make up his mind?